that one guy ip_sec aka matt, is my oldest brother, 7 years my senior. I got the "fornication boot" from the org back in 98 and he and I sorta lost touch over the years.
Long story long, I was rather terrorized as a child by him. Bugs in the hair,making me cry and laughing at me for it, annoying songs and phrases, telling me my hands and feet were webbed when I was born and that you automatically win at poker if you fold, and lets not forget the random slaps upside the head.
But, he also introduced me to AC/DC and Van Halen, taught me how to shoot a gun, spelunk in indian caves, break and ride horses, milk cows, throw a lasso, and all sorts of things. I think he might have stuck up for me once or twice but I'll have to get back to you on that one.
Mostly its just great to have him back in my life. I have only 2 pictures of all 3 of my brothers and myself together at the same place since we were wee lads. Graduation and a funeral! For so long I have looked at those photos and been sad that we all became so distant because we thought we were doing what was right in God's eyes....but how can something like that be right in ANYONE'S eyes?
colorado5591
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What speaks to you?
by IP_SEC intool is my favorite band right now.
i really connect with their music and lyrics.
ok i like fluffy stuff sometimes, heck better than ezra is one of my favorite bands.
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colorado5591
Well posted prnicess of monkeys!
I am not really at a dark time in my life currently but I am obsessed with a very intense man who has a happy lil ditty that goes a likah disah
I black out in the room again,
Busted lip and broken skin
I wake up in the bathroom,
I dare not bother asking
Why the mirror's cracked
And all I see
Are shards of glass inside of me
A voice is there to dare me
My father's here to scare me
And my mother sits beyond the door,
She's curled up, crying on the floor
"Look at what our son's done,
The weight of all the world's gone wrong."
Liars leave a guilty trail
And Let me tell you I've been lying for fucking years
That must be why I'm sitting
In this space,
Disregarding I've created these monsters
On both my sides,
And I wipe the blood from both their eyes,
From all four of their eyes
And while I wait for wounds to heal,
I see you by the window sill
Your heart tore out,
A plastic spoon
That honesty lit up the room
And I took the pillowcase to clean
The mess I'd made of someone's dream
Now you see what I have done,
When the weight of all the world's gone wrong -
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colorado5591
Holy crap! It was right after you left home, and all that was left was Quhui Dog. you were busy getting busy with your wife. Jeebus! I never did crack or meth specifically so no offense taken.
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colorado5591
yes that is my real face. How come our brothers cant be as fabulous looking as you and I? We got fat in our old age....sigh
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colorado5591
My story? well, the first 13 years prolly same as Matt's. I found drugs, became a junkie burnout by 15 y.o. Moved to California with my otha brutha, got clean, was in an awesome congregation, the way a congregation should be without all the untrusting watchful critical eyes. I got dunked when I was 17, moved back to my old congregation and allowed myself to go all to hell. Got disfellowed for fornication. bla bla bla.....7 years later here I am, trying to figure this all out still. Thankfully I am stil 10 years clean
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It is finished, or is it just beginning?
by IP_SEC inwell i am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses.
i had fully intentioned to disassociate myself from the platform today, but i decided that if i wanted a chance to save my marriage that i'd better tell my wife.
she immediately went to to one of the elders.
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colorado5591
Yet again I sent my number. If worse comes to worse, my phone number is listed in the city I live under my husbands name. Speaking of which, he is an intellectual, as you are, and me thinks you would really like him. never underestimate the power of nerds in small groups..
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It is finished, or is it just beginning?
by IP_SEC inwell i am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses.
i had fully intentioned to disassociate myself from the platform today, but i decided that if i wanted a chance to save my marriage that i'd better tell my wife.
she immediately went to to one of the elders.
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grrrr... I emailed you my numbah. You should talk to you other lil brother. He being is all spastic about this deal....someone please tell me what on God's green earth possesed me to let him move in with me. You know, I only stay with him for the kids.
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It is finished, or is it just beginning?
by IP_SEC inwell i am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses.
i had fully intentioned to disassociate myself from the platform today, but i decided that if i wanted a chance to save my marriage that i'd better tell my wife.
she immediately went to to one of the elders.
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colorado5591
Shut your bleepin yap hole Matthew! Screw all that pity party boo hoo for Matt! What you need to be sorry for is beating the crap out of me all the while growing up! I have gained a whole new level of respect for you because you like Blue October. I am truly floored because I am sitting here burning you some Blue and then you say to me that Blue Oct kicks ass?! Do I need to stop burning this? I have all their albums, even The Answers which is no longer in print. I think as a gift to celebrate this moment, I'm sending you a candle that Justin signed for me at a show a few years back. Excuse me while I put my face in this pillow and scream....
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Were you allowed to play sports?
by love11 ini was never allowed to play sports, because it would be too much association with worldly people.
no skating, dance class, racquet ball, softball, nothing.
in my kingdom hall, only the "spiritually weak" played sports.
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colorado5591
SWEET FANCY MOSES! Ain't that the truth, I think that was just Dad. He swindled me out of college. He used it as a ploy to get me to come back from California. Clearly I remember, sitting in Dairy Queen with ma and pa, and dad says...you dont need college, just find a nice man to marry.....WTF is that all about?
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It is finished, or is it just beginning?
by IP_SEC inwell i am no longer one of jehovah's witnesses.
i had fully intentioned to disassociate myself from the platform today, but i decided that if i wanted a chance to save my marriage that i'd better tell my wife.
she immediately went to to one of the elders.
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colorado5591
J Matty boy was a good ol boy...... You know I always understood why you were compelled to distance yourself from me. It sucked a whole lot for me too. I am having a harder time with this latest development in your life. My mind is boggled! Why don't you spare me the time consuming feat of reading all your posts, and just call me or email me. (in Napoleon Dynamite fashion) GOSH!