Not to be obvious, but reading the WT literature ,from the early 1900's influenced me a lot. I always ask "Why". There is a LOT to ask about in WT history. I also read 1984. That really got me wondering why my questions were being shut down rather than answered.
Reading this forum has made me recognize a few other triggers. One was very recent. Someone was joking about how they thought it was fun how we never quite knew what we'd believe after the next meeting, assembly, or book. Really, that's the crazy truth. I think stayed in for 2years for the drama of seeing what the next dropped shoe would smell like. I lived through 1975 as a young impressionable girl of 9. I left in 81 or 82.