That darn 'Knowledge Book' has found it's way back to my coffee table along with the latest copy of WT. And let's not forget the ever wonderful email refuting the 'Trinity'. Now need I say it is break up time again.
A brief history of me and BL. He is a recently reinstated (Un-Disfellowshipped,,,Everybody's speaking to him again) JW. We started dating right around the time he was having a life changing moment in his life. We've been dating for almost a year and our only major difference is our Religious beliefs. When he first starting sharing this JW stuff with me,,,I asked questions, answered the questions 'Independently', shared what I knew and basically got crushed. He hit me with so much information I questioned what I have been taught and believed. Well, I am the type, if I think something is wrong with me I want to know what it is. So I began praying for quidance and started my research. A whole new world opened up and it wasn't pretty. My first attempt at sharing what I found didn't go well because I was so ill-equipped.
Well, through many discussions (arguments) and break ups, I let him know that I don't want to and will not ever argue the bible (I didn't write it) and if he can't control the angry outburst (when I answer wrong) we will not discuss it at all. I continue to show him how Jesus' followers followed him and sat at his feet willingly, not because of force, threatening, etc. He know that I am right and (because the "JWs are the only ones that strictly adhere to Jesus' teaching") he has to apologize and fall in order to get my attention.
I still take up so much time with him because I know without doubt that his heart is not in this Organization. He is not committed to it and he does just what he has to and that's all. Meanwhile, I'm sitting back learnng more and more, showing love and patience and arming myself for our next confrontation. I feel it brewing, the email and the 'Knowledge Book' (I threw away the first one he gave me) were like the proverbial calling card. I feel that because he is getting so slack in his studying and meeting attending, the Elder is probably turning up the heat. I know he told them about me in the past and I attending the Lord's Evening Meal (that a separate posting in itself) with him, but I am pretty doubtful that they know for sure that I am still on the scene. They probably suspect it though. That's why we are back to the 'Knowledge Book'. My girlfriend and I were joking last night, She said I should use some Red fingernail polish and paint crosses on the covers and every page.
Now to prepare for him, I have been to just about every website I can find that I felt would be helpful. I have the book, JW Answered verse by verse by D. Reed. I am praying for that opening and I am going to use my best shot. I know that one time I will have to give him something concrete to even make a dent in his thinking. Any and all suggestions will be welcomed. Meanwhile that dreaded book and magazine are laying on my coffee table untouched and unmoved. I am looking for the day that he is delivered from this control. I may not see it, but I believe that he is bound for a break through and break out.
I'll let you know of his Victory!
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