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  Would you be offended....

  by coolhandluke in

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  by a black guy dressing for halloween as clayton bigsby the black white supremacist?

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  coolhandluke

  I have dreds. Long dreds. But I can do the voice and it would be freaking hilarious.
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  Would you be offended....

  by coolhandluke in

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  by a black guy dressing for halloween as clayton bigsby the black white supremacist?

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  by a black guy dressing for Halloween as Clayton Bigsby the black white supremacist?
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  Hi ,,, here I am

  by Nick! in

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  i joined this forum very recently, and have already posted some comments in reply to given threads.. you may want to know that .

  - i am living in the e.u.

  s. - i was raised as a jw since the age of 2.

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  I'd love to know what made you realize (1) and (2) how you got your family out with you.
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  Battle

  by coolhandluke in

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  split open, gaping, spilled out onto my weapon.

  all the more honed, all the harder at the sacrifice meted out for pleasures sake, for pains sake.

  now they are washed together, tumbled and they are the same.

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  thanks awake. i love poetry as well. sould clensing

  Part II

  Battle is done, fires exhausted, weapons down, wounds gaping
  
  My breath comes out pained and condensed
  
  I taste of so much copper
  
  A downward gaze. Damage surveyed
  
  This isn’t going to heal soon is it?
  
  I didn't know it would be this way.
  
  Welcome the cycle, its turning. It patiently waits. It surely anticipates my company
  
  Armor peels off in thuds, reverberations running up my legs in waves
  
  Off comes my helmet
  
  Blood trails away from me in your general direction
  
  I can’t tell in this haze of vision
  
  The earth feels warm
  
  Heaven stretches its fingers toward my collapsed body
  
  Go away
  
  I think I’m going to stand.
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  Battle

  by coolhandluke in

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  split open, gaping, spilled out onto my weapon.

  all the more honed, all the harder at the sacrifice meted out for pleasures sake, for pains sake.

  now they are washed together, tumbled and they are the same.

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  coolhandluke

  thanks Baba. Feeling is mutual.

  Gopher - I think it is a sign.

  JK - glad that it speaks to you in some way
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  Battle

  by coolhandluke in

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  split open, gaping, spilled out onto my weapon.

  all the more honed, all the harder at the sacrifice meted out for pleasures sake, for pains sake.

  now they are washed together, tumbled and they are the same.

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  coolhandluke

  no one likes poetry? shame.
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  Battle

  by coolhandluke in

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  split open, gaping, spilled out onto my weapon.

  all the more honed, all the harder at the sacrifice meted out for pleasures sake, for pains sake.

  now they are washed together, tumbled and they are the same.

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  Split open, gaping, spilled out onto my weapon
  
  All the more honed, all the harder at the sacrifice meted out for pleasures sake, for pains sake.
  
  Now they are washed together, tumbled and they are the same
  
  On this battle ground this land is made hallowed by the surrender of blood
  
  What have you left to give? I am spent, body and mind
  
  Who knew that fire could mix into browns and greens?
  
  Don’t blink, the fuel is the gaze
  
  Slowly you trickle onto me
  
  Rent and torn into a mixture of loud fluid

  This is the reward for such a furious struggle
  
  This is a battle of battles
  
  Mutual death is assured, I promise though we’ll wake
  
  We’ll rouse broken, sore, and pained
  
  In a mirrored fighting stance, braced.
  
  Today there is a further battle.
  
  Satiation wafts away on the breeze. Didn’t you know it would be this way?
  
  This is a war of bodies, of wills, of wants of desires.
  
  Soon this will become need.
  
  Didn’t you know it would be this way?
  
  My weapon will yet again find its home inside of your body
  
  This is the dance. Your sacrifice of blood and water and breath will not go on as a debt unsettled
  
  I will pay you in kind, thrusting, gouging, twisting in rhythm to your movements
  
  Invisible metronome of expelled air, humid and dense, complimentary
  
  Bathed in sweat there is no woman. There is no man. Neither is left. Just the faces of bodies slain
  
  Violence is its own reward. Bruises are their own remuneration. Pain is its own recompense. Shortness of breath is its own compensation. Exhaustion is its own pleasure.
  
  Burn green brown fire, burn

  *there is a part two, a culmination. let me know if you want to read it*
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  How do you know...

  by coolhandluke in

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  if your so is cheating on you?

  well, she's not my so anymore.

  she decided a few days ago that she didn't have it in her to continue the relationship.

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  i did some thinking. i realize where it fell apart. her life the past few years has been a cycle of bad. drugs, cheating, unexpected pregnancy and a lot of trust issues. i can't, nor would i try to fix these things. but it leaked into our relationship. i think she was afraid of losing me, of trusting me. so she pulled the trigger before i did. this is depressing to say the least. i just need to move to the left and let her sort out her own problems. i have to work on me and work on the reasons why i allow for relationships with this type of underlying damage. it just isn't healthy. i think that she loved the idea of me but could not handle the reality. she's got nothing left to give. it makes me sad for her but i have to move on.
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  How do you know...

  by coolhandluke in

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  if your so is cheating on you?

  well, she's not my so anymore.

  she decided a few days ago that she didn't have it in her to continue the relationship.

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  coolhandluke

  i hope there is a reason for things sassy. i really do. then again maybe some people are just not built for living life in reality, dealing with things as they come and planning in spite of difficulties. this is my opportunity to prove that the lessons i've learned have not been for nothing, that i am strong, that i matter, that i'm attractive, that i'm intelligent and that i am worth more than i thought i was. there it is.
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  How do you know...

  by coolhandluke in

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  2. relationships

  if your so is cheating on you?

  well, she's not my so anymore.

  she decided a few days ago that she didn't have it in her to continue the relationship.

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  coolhandluke

  here is the thing: i don't think i want her back. she's been disrespectful to me. i deserve better than that. so no matter what she said or did, i'm done. and i'm okay with that. at the beginning i wanted to work it out. i don't anymore. it made me realize that i don't deserve the leftovers of energy. i don't deserve the scraps. i don't deserve the remains of the day. i've said it before - all i want in a relationship is to be loved, to be touched, to be appreciated, to be stimulated. moreover, that is what i want to give. but it has to be equal. i can't always be 80 and you be 20. i can't.

  darth frosty: i'm gonna go find that book right now. thanks for the suggestion.