there is really nowhere else for me to post about what goes on inside me.
i know that my problems aren't all because i was a witness.
the agony in my mind has led me to a psychiatrist.. he has diagnosed me with cyclothymic mood disorder, a milder form.
joelbear - I don't think I've ever posted on your thread before but I wanted to say to you:
nothing lasts forever. this is a moment and it will pass. until then, post all you want. get it out of you. it helps me to get it out.
I also think your pro-active search in finding yourself help is a huge sign of your desire to get better and enjoy life. Be patient with yourself my friend.....
there is help out there and your on your way to finding it. keep us up to date on your progress....
i am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that i think any of you have been dishonest - i just don't want the sugar coated version of pollyanna lines.. i have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby.
however, i'm wondering if i'm in the minority here when i bring this subject up.
being raised a jw i had to be so straight for so long.
Auld soul -
You have been a JW wife for a while, do you think that is a good course to make her more likely to wake up?
it's hard to say. but I would encourage anything that teaches her to have fun. you're not allowed to have fun as a witness. she probably loves it that she can do that stuff with you. tell her how sexy it would be for her to get a navel ring! tell her you'll take her to do it. it could be a fun bonding thing to do together!
i am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that i think any of you have been dishonest - i just don't want the sugar coated version of pollyanna lines.. i have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby.
however, i'm wondering if i'm in the minority here when i bring this subject up.
being raised a jw i had to be so straight for so long.
AUDE -
If you are that ready, I'd go for the permanent tatt and maybe put it somewhere that is conspicuously exposed but can readily be covered incase you find yourself in a situation where you don't want to flaunt your rebellion. Upper arm or back of shoulder??
-already have a few picked out.....probably lower back in center....right above my butt. kind of peeks out of your jeans but makes people look twice...
And the navel piercing.
- I'm going to do this in the next few weeks and then followed by my nose.
Open a christmas savings account for 2006??
- already planning next xmas for my kids............
Burn the books. (Tear up a few first.)
- ummm....YES! anybody know any good WICCA campfire songs we can sing around our bonfire?!
Contact Silent Lambs. Let them know you can be a 'safe house' (probably need family consensus on this one since it's their home too).
-- what's this all about...didn't know you could do this?
I sky-dived. But I don't think I'd have done it with young children. And it's pretty expensive for a newbie.
- already have a friend who does this and I've set a date to try this..........
Couple months ago I bought a used motorcycle. First I took the Rider's safety class. That in itself was fun and felt a little like rebellion. My JW family just rolled their eyes at me.
- yep, ready for this also. I want to drive the motorcycle not just be the rider on the back.....
I really think this is UNhealthy, but rather than buy a whole pack of cigarettes, maybe just bum one off a friend - or even more daring, a STRANGER! Just smoke and chat with them for a few minutes then be off and about your normal, decent life. A simple 'thanks' to your smoking partner and you are gone.
- loved this idea....going to do it this week.
Take a philosophy class at the local community college. (or a religion class.
- going back to school when I move and philosophy class is 1st on my list...
LOVE YOU IDEAS!! now you're thinking like me.....don't worry I'll totally let you know how my progress goes.... pics and all.
ATYPICAL -
"Oh well, I'm going to hell anyway!"
Love this....my new motto! too funny.....
FREEWILLY -
now that you know THIS LIFE is the only one you know FOR SURE you have, then get out there. You're not gettin any younger sista.
AMen my brotha! good advice....
last but not least...TETRAPOD - right here man! (points from my eyes to your eyes) seeing eye to eye man! thanks for all your words....I suppose some people here would be horrified that I can see eye to eye with you! ha!
i am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that i think any of you have been dishonest - i just don't want the sugar coated version of pollyanna lines.. i have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby.
however, i'm wondering if i'm in the minority here when i bring this subject up.
being raised a jw i had to be so straight for so long.
it sure was my pleasure meeting you and that guy.......
HappyDad - we thoroughly enjoyed meeting you also....
Pretty interesting how the night turned out. Did you think you'd have to hang out with some real JW's also?! Thanks for playing it so cool. Glad we got to meet and chat.
i am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that i think any of you have been dishonest - i just don't want the sugar coated version of pollyanna lines.. i have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby.
however, i'm wondering if i'm in the minority here when i bring this subject up.
being raised a jw i had to be so straight for so long.
ITIS - LOL!!
sorry ya all - my hubby has a new idea for some rebellion so I gotta go.....
i am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that i think any of you have been dishonest - i just don't want the sugar coated version of pollyanna lines.. i have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby.
however, i'm wondering if i'm in the minority here when i bring this subject up.
being raised a jw i had to be so straight for so long.
AUDE -
"I'm not sure if that helps you any...but maybe just let your hair down a bit. It doesn't mean go out and get a tattoo or piercings ..."Or maybe it does.
YES GOD DAMN!! I'm not talking about a night out with the girls, or a break from motherhood. NO offense to those suggestions......I'm a little beyond that though...
I do get breaks. I am not the mother that ONLY lives for her children. I work and have many interests that don't involve my kids.
A tattoo and piercing are first on my list of things to do to rebel and probably some weed shortly following that. I just don't know if that will scratch the itch enough....
looks like we have sold our house and we will be doing the big move and transformation of our lives by the end of this month.
yippee for us!!.
anyhow, in the midst of all this packing i've come across a lot of extra jw books and i was going to save them for a bonfire but i thought i'd offer them up to any of you that may be interested.
Looks like we have sold our house and we will be doing the big move and transformation of our lives by the end of this month. YIPPEE for us!!
anyhow, in the midst of all this packing I've come across a lot of extra JW books and I was going to save them for a bonfire but I thought I'd offer them up to any of you that may be interested. I've got some NWT, a new theocratic ministry school book, a proclaimers book, lots of mags., etc.
let me know if there's something in particular you may want.......
If nobody wants any, you can join me for the biggest book burning in history and we'll roast marshmellows.....
i am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that i think any of you have been dishonest - i just don't want the sugar coated version of pollyanna lines.. i have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby.
however, i'm wondering if i'm in the minority here when i bring this subject up.
being raised a jw i had to be so straight for so long.
-----------------great thoughts thus far ---------------
I'm sitting here reading them and letting them percolate down......
- namaste -
i am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that i think any of you have been dishonest - i just don't want the sugar coated version of pollyanna lines.. i have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby.
however, i'm wondering if i'm in the minority here when i bring this subject up.
being raised a jw i had to be so straight for so long.
I am truly looking for your honesty on this issue...not that I think any of you have been dishonest - I just don't want the sugar coated version of Pollyanna lines.
I have spoken about this subject privately with one of you - ;) - and also with my hubby. However, I'm wondering if I'm in the minority here when I bring this subject up.
Being raised a JW I had to be SO straight for SO long. now I want to just shed ALL responsiblity. It's totally out of my character. I'm the "level-headed", "reliable" one to any who know me. Yet I have this burning desire to just REBEL. Rebel against everything, the whole world. The only catch is - I am a wife and mom. You still have quite a bit of responsibility when you're in those roles. It leads you down roads of thought at times where you question would you have had children or gotten married if you knew what you know now. I have had my share of abuse and divorce and nasty parents when I was a kid, so I won't do that to my children. I am also aware of the great paradox that rebeling JUST to rebel against the JW's/GB/WTS/whatever means to a certain degree that they still are controlling your actions! damn, I hate that.....
So, I suppose I'm asking you all - did you have this experience when you left? If you did, what did you do to cleanse yourself of this and yet not destroy your life for the future? I've seen some people leave and they just go all out and then literally contract a VD or become a total drug addict or destoy their marriage. If you did have this experience how long did it last for you or what would you recommend in dealing with this issue?
Thanks in advance for pondering this............
and you guys didn't even know it!.
last night i was reading some of my sisters writing, with her pemission.
she isn't baptized yet and she is 17, which that alone is a miracle.
AWESOME NEWS WANDERLUST!! and WELCOME - WELCOME - WELCOME wanderlust's sister....hope you can confide in eachother now...
This alone was worth your trip home Wanderlust!
