Freedom lover.. most of us do! They are after all our families, real and surrogate, and all the friends we've ever known.
Today in the sales I bumped into an elder and wife I am DEARLY fond of and they asked me to go for coffee, I agreed, with inner dread because I worried they were going to start nagging me about the meetings etc, but instead we laughed and talked like old times about ones we know inthe cong and silly things. And I felt a TRUE sense of loss when I stood up, knowing these people will not continue to treat me as well when it becomes obvious I have drifted away right over the edge!
Was slightly amused and perturbed that I was wearing a short (ish) skirt and boots, his wife was wearing a floor skimming one, as he is an elder that is paranoid about modesty, fortunately I had a VERY large sales bag to put over my knees..lol.
I do love and miss 90% of the brothers, but also know I cant be close to them, because I couldn't help but talk about what I know..
Poppy xxx