By myself. Thinking of my age. The years I wasted learning to be humble but finding myself struggling to keep up. Looking at my face in the bathroom mirror and I see grey. When I look at my 18 year old team mates and realise I gave up the chance to play football for a living. When the 25 year old girl behind the bar treats me respectfully rather than asking for I.D.
A large part of my life wasted and I can't really blame anyone but myself.
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When are you most susceptible to painful Watchtower memories?
by The wanderer inuntitled document <!-- .style1 {font-family: verdana} --> painful watchtower memoriesthis subject is not an easy one to talk about so.
perhaps you should consider your thoughts very.
carefully before you answer.. the summer months are some of the most trying times .
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How much influence did the internet have on you leaving the organization?
by The wanderer inuntitled document <!-- .style1 {font-family: verdana} .style2 {font-family: verdana; font-style: italic; } --> discoveries about the organization on the internet admittedly, had it not been for the internet, and all of the dis-.
coveries that were found on it; i would still be one of jehovah's .
witnesses.
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I'd faded for many years. (Depression / isolation) And sneaked a look at apostate sites and knew I was a lucky one!
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New Website for those raised JW
by mblack ini just want to let you know about my new website.
i was raised jw and disfellowshiped at 16. along with a few of my own experiences that i relate, i interviewed fourteen people raised jw for my senior thesis in college.
after quite some time i have finally gotten it up on the internet.
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Welcome Marie, I'll read this tomorrow as I'm off to bed right now. After a quick glance I think the effort you've put in is fantastic! All the very best. Pete
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I'm new and nervous!
by kitten whiskers ini am new here and have been "lurking" for several months.
the discussions have helped me tremendously to break free from the society.
i want to thank you all for your help and heartfelt posts.
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Sasha, Lutece, Jimbo, youcanhaveago and Kitten Whiskas, GIDDAY FROM WAAAAY DOWN UNDER.
After months of sneaking looks at this site when everyone had gone to bed, I finally got the courage to post. Now I don't keep looking over my shoulder in case I meet a Dub and they will somehow guess I'm an 'apostate'!
Nice to have you here. Now off to organise a brew.
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How many people in this forum are from NewZealand??
by ania inhello i am a newbie and just saw another person in the forum from nz.
it hadn't even occured to me...now i wonder how many there are??
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Hi Ania. From Otago. And I used to be around the congs. in Auckland and Hamilton. There are at least another couple that come on here that haven't replied yet.
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Muslim lingo very similar to Aussie lingo
by barry ini bought the daily telgraph today and in the political cartoon section there is the heading 'who will pass the true blue test.. you see australia is very lax with immigrants and now wants them to learn english and to learn about australian values.. in the telegraph we have two arab men doing the test.the second arab is the aussie one.. first arab "stone the infidels ' second arab 'stone the crows'.
first arab 'strike the unworthy' second arab'strike me lucky'.
frist arab 'blow me up'.
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Ha! Yes, Stilla that's the complete opposite of 'sparing' the bearded clam.
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Muslim lingo very similar to Aussie lingo
by barry ini bought the daily telgraph today and in the political cartoon section there is the heading 'who will pass the true blue test.. you see australia is very lax with immigrants and now wants them to learn english and to learn about australian values.. in the telegraph we have two arab men doing the test.the second arab is the aussie one.. first arab "stone the infidels ' second arab 'stone the crows'.
first arab 'strike the unworthy' second arab'strike me lucky'.
frist arab 'blow me up'.
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Maaate! Fosters did a great promo years ago called Teach Yourself Strine. On each side of a coaster you had an Aussie phrase and its 'English' equivalent. Trouble getting the Muslims into the pub though.
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I finally made it in to see the Dr.
by WildHorses inand what i have is depression.
i've been prescribed prozac and for a short time xanax.
i will only be on the xanax for about two weeks.
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BTW, I didn't mean to imply that the meds had no long term use, If I hadn't been taking my meds for the last ten years along with hospital and counselling I would have been dead a long time ago. I just mean that the meds left to themselves are not likely to keep you well if there are persistent behaviour or thought patterns that need to be changed. Pete.
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I finally made it in to see the Dr.
by WildHorses inand what i have is depression.
i've been prescribed prozac and for a short time xanax.
i will only be on the xanax for about two weeks.
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I hope the Prozac (fluoxetine) works for you. I had good results with it and have had even better results with two others. (paroxetine and citalopram). But I have to say both to you and lovesdubs that the medication in itself has small value for long term or chronic depression, you need to be working on the things that precipitate the depression and learn how to cope. Counselling and group therapy I found very helpful.
"my DR she said that sometimes the meds help people to commit suicide because when they are like me and affraid of death the meds make them not be so affraid"
- what the meds can do is give you a little relief from misery you've been feeling, you feel a little better, you have a little more energy and something goes wrong and the negative emotions wash over you again. You now have that little bit of energy to follow through with those suicidal thoughts. This is where you need people to be around you and support you.
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Another thing along similar lines to garybuss; I've always considered the use of someones first name as an indication of closeness or friendship and nothing to do with over-familiarity, but I can recall cringing when some stupid directive was read (maybe in a WT) about how much more loving it was to call your brothers and sisters as 'brother.... and sister....'
The cool brothers got away with calling everyone 'bro'