I lurked here for over a year and a half before posting. This might sound stupid, but I remember closing my eyes, holding my breath and pushing "submit". It was very hard for me.....to always live in fear and paranoia of everything is an awful feeling. Day by day it gets better...Welcome and I hope this site can be your "therapy" while you still have to stay in. You are not alone.
Posts by EC
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24Welcome to the nervous but clearly sweet and warm Leftbelow!
by Crumpet ini just caught a new first posting by leftbelow and wanted to be the first to welcome them and comment on how nice and unselfish their first post was (on unique1's thread).
however the listener got in first so i shall be the second!.
welcome leftbelow - don't be nervous - you are among a cool crowd who are interested in what you have to say and think.
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The end is not close..................so prove it !
by vitty inim fading, and some of my family now realize we arent going to meetings.
everytime they phone or speak to me me, they keep reminding ( threatning) that the end is so close, dont give up now.. i just dont know how to respond, i know so much, but dont want to go into the un stuff yet ( dont want to sound apostate just yet) how can i say i dont believe the end is close !
that armageddon isnt iminent, what scripture can i use to back it up.
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I actually do better writing things down....I hate talking face to face. And what is weird is that I know the exact answers they are about to say and I still freeze up. Matt 24 is a big thing that they keep showing me and my friend just explained something to me that I am going to use...
When Jesus went "two by two" and "house to house" they knew the people they were going to visit. They were not strangers...When they went into cities where they knew no one, Jesus would do sermons, usually in public places, not go knocking on strangers doors. It was very different from our day. Not the same at all and to compare it makes no sense.
It made me think a lot and I am doing more research on this. There is no way we can take everything so literal and make it black and white for our day.
But, what it all boils down to, is no matter if you have the perfect speech and know exactly what you are going to say, 9.9 times out of 10 they will not listen to you and say you are being mislead. I was joking the other day and told my husband I might as well take a magic marker and write 666 across my forehead and walk into my family's house. They obviously do not consider me to be an intelligent human being that can make logical decisions for myself..... I just try to drop in little things every now and then. -
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My Dad's story
by coffee_black infreedomlovers post about her dads letter got me thinking about my dad, in fact, it sounds like it could have been written by my dad.
every once in a while it really hits me that he is no longer here to talk to.
unlike most of you, i wouldnt have been afraid to approach him with questions or doubts.
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Oh my goodness, what a story! Tears in my eyes....so much love....Thank you for sharing that with us today, Debbie...
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I'M MOVIN' ON IN LIFE
by onesong inso i've been here now about 4 months and about to be upgraded from a newbie.
(woohooo!!!).
and since i didn't get to go to college and a host of other things (i really wonder just how good of a baseball player i could have been).
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It is Rascal Flatts- I'm movin on
Everytime I listen to it.... some parts of it....I really relate to.
I wish you much happiness in your new found hobby/job. It sounds like a lot of fun!
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How does Shunning feel?
by DaveNwisconsin injust curious as i had never really been a true jehovah witness.
i would think that you make friends and suddenly you don't exist.
i would think a board like this is a true godsend.
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It is like I have been on death row for murder........
I know in my heart I did not do it, yet everyone, including my family doesn't believe me..........
I have finally after many years been acquitted and released to be free......
Still, so many people believe I am guilty and treat me as such....
Very saddened, but yet at peace in my own heart and ready to tackle new things that I was never able to do in prison....
Waiting with open arms for my family to see my innocence.....
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Dad very seriously ill..... How did I find out?
by Gretchen956 infirst let me start off by saying i am very sick myself right now.
i have a virus that settled in my nerves (very very painful and no it isn't herpes), and now two weeks in i caught a very bad upper respiritory bronchities.
i spent my day in bed as i have been for most of two weeks now with no end in sight (dammit).. not trying for sympathy points, but this just isn't a good time for this!.
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(((Much love to you in your time of need!!!)))
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I'M MOVIN' ON IN LIFE
by onesong inso i've been here now about 4 months and about to be upgraded from a newbie.
(woohooo!!!).
and since i didn't get to go to college and a host of other things (i really wonder just how good of a baseball player i could have been).
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I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
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Need some help....
by EC ini would really appreciate if any could point me to some articles, books or commentaries that wouldn't necessarily be considered "apostate" that would help me compile a letter.
i have been skipping around researching for about 1 yr and 1/2.
i didn't necessarily stick to one thing...when something made sense, i moved on.
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It is definatly not something that I am going to do spur of the moment. I was born and raised JW so I know how I reacted to all things as being apostate. My friend, who was on her way out but I didn't know it, actually sat me down and started laughing and said something like "I stumbled on to this website the other day doing some research and come here I got to show you.." as she walks me to the computer..."Can you believe these people don't even believe in 1914? They are so crazy! And look someone posted a supposed picture of Charles T Russells grave site...they say it is a pyramid! Yeah right!"
We both started laughing. Well, she knew what she was doing....I wondered about it all the time....It might have taken over a year for me to actually get the courage and research everything myself, but I did. I would have never listened if she sat me down and had a talk. It would have scared me too much. I just would like to start compiling stuff for my own reference if I feel the time is right. -
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Need some help....
by EC ini would really appreciate if any could point me to some articles, books or commentaries that wouldn't necessarily be considered "apostate" that would help me compile a letter.
i have been skipping around researching for about 1 yr and 1/2.
i didn't necessarily stick to one thing...when something made sense, i moved on.
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I would really appreciate if any could point me to some articles, books or commentaries that wouldn't necessarily be considered "apostate" that would help me compile a letter. I have been skipping around researching for about 1 yr and 1/2. I didn't necessarily stick to one thing...when something made sense, I moved on. It all came to a head and an AH HA moment with the Crisis book. But, compiling a letter similar to what freedomlover just did to her dad, if I decided to do that, I really wouldn't be able to add in the fact of some of the things I read. I hope I am explaining this ok....Thanks!
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hi everyone :)
by jojochan injust wanted to drop a line and say "hi".
i too am a long time lurker that "came out" sort of speaking.
(' bout 2 yrs!
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Welcome! Take a big exhale. It was a big step for me to type my first word here, now it is getting easier!