Little Toe,
Your poetry is breathtaking not to mention poignant. Your post reminds me of something a friend (and fellow poet) wrote about chaos being the canvas upon which we paint our lives. Our sense of order, whether spoon-fed from the org, or just the rule of law that we humor ourselves with is only an illusion that we use to stave off the fear of the fact that underneath it all, we are ruled by chaos ("time and unseen circumstance befall us all").
However, from the Void; the Aleph, comes form. We create our own realities by our thoughts, actions and beliefs.
Anyway, beautiful poetry.
Love and Light,
~Brigid