dear fellow sojourners (i love addressing y'all as such!).
i have found myself in a very "odd" sort of space lately.
in this space, i am having some very very strange and "deep" dreams.
Target,
Yes, there is much wisdom in what you say. I'm not sure about the JW's being dead snakes--although it could be in that they were a stifling of my spiritual birthright that I overcame.
Jgnat--yes, a room of my own. I'm fixing an art studio for myself.
Lots of turmoil in my life right now.
Thanks for all the input.
~Brigid
ok here's the deal.
every since amanda moved out i have been surviving on one income, and lately i have been strapped for cash.
my bills are behind, my credit cards are behind, needless to say im broke.
This is predatory lending and I wish it were illegal. I think it's criminal when I drive into the poorest of the working poor neighborhoods and see "paycheck" loan places on every corner--it's exploitation of people who are down already.
Do what you have to do, but I would be very very careful. This is very expensive money and there are cheaper monies to be had. Do you own a home that you could draw some equity out of (i.e. a HELOC--Home Equity Line of Credit? or a refinance--although, if you bought at a low rate, the rates now will kill you--but it's cheaper than 30%, I guarantee).
Do you have friends or relatives that you could contractually borrow from at a low to no interest rate until you get on your feet again?
Is your partner in any position whatsoever to get whatever kind of job possible just until you guys get past this hump? (barring a serious illness or a new baby, which negates minimum wage jobs by virtue of childcare costs, even a low-paying or part-time job would help).
Take a piece of paper and a calculator. Look at how much you are taking in, vs. where your money is going. Look at all your credit card payments, and all payments that involve additional interest payments and look at what is the most expensive--(i.e. got a credit card that's costing 20% vs. a house payment that's costing you 5-6%?) Look at how you can possibly consolidate into the cheaper monies.
Hope this helps slightly.
~Brigid
so yesterday my two soon to be stepkids boy12,girl 9, came over for a visit with their dad.
their mom is a dub, her dad is an elder, my man is d'fd.
anyway, i was just sitting in my room feeding the baby when girl comes in and asks if im gonna start throwing her birthday parties.
This is a tough one. I would start small and only at the child's initiation. Nothing that makes her feel uncomfortable in the slightest. Maybe a little cake or some non-threatening cup-cakes (listen to me--"non-threatening" cupcakes HAHA)
This is unexplored territory for all involved. They have been hardwired to think this stuff is bad. They will likely not feel comfortable in lying. But some well-meaning gifts and recognition that this is indeed a special day will be good for the beginning. Next year, maybe a little more and so on and so on.
You're right, no one needs undue drama--sounds like there's enough of that going around already.
Good luck. I think the girls sound lucky to have you in their life. Just keep loving them the best you can and reaching out in love and trust in the universe to unfold as it should.
~Brigid
No. Ditto to what college girl said.
~Brigid
... that i've noticed, generated by wbts, include that:.
- everybody's living room has a view to the distant snow-capped mountains, uninhibited by the neighbour's ugly tudor that he knocked together at least forty five millennia ago and wouldn't you think he'd have painted the gables by now?.
- they all visit their friends walking over the unfenced meadows carrying baskets of fruit.
I honestly cannot remember--were we going to be able to have sex in the new system? Children? Wouldn't we over-populate quickly? The thought of eternity with the people I was surrounded with growing up was a huge deterrant in of itself (also the thought of being married forever to my first husband was absolutely unbearable!!)
~Brigid
hi all, i have come across some very important information and i wish to share it with anyone who wants to change their life for the better, i want you to know i have nothing to gain from this.
i am very greatful to all of you who have contributed to helping me on this journey which began a little more than a year ago, you guys are grrrreat, thank you.
http://www.thesecret.tv/.
Wednesday,
This is going to hi-jack this post a bit and I apologize but I have to put my 2 cents in on Karma. My knowledge is limited but as I understand it. The Law of Karma is really just Cause and Effect and not really to do with good/evil. It seems more of a balancing system built into our schema. There is no "good" Karma/"bad" Karma. There are just debits and credit to your soul-account as you cycle in and out of this learning institution. And your soul does remember these things. It's all for personal evolution.
My new-agey 2 cents on Karma for what it's worth.
~Brigid
dear fellow sojourners (i love addressing y'all as such!).
i have found myself in a very "odd" sort of space lately.
in this space, i am having some very very strange and "deep" dreams.
hmmmm....Gestaldt? I've touched on it. I shall google it and explore further--thank you, Wednesday. I'm quite positive that, as with "real" life, dream characters are only parts of oneself--the "villains" are only parts of ourselves we find difficult to identify with in ourselves but very much a part of us nonetheless. I think that's why the she-wolf disturbs me so greatly.
Leolia,
Very interesting. Was she there to harm or take over nurturing? I could not tell. It was very disturbing at that point and I awoke at that point. I will see if I can revisit it in meditation. Romulus and Remus come up twice now. Probably something I should google as well.
Thanks!
~Brigid
hi all, i have come across some very important information and i wish to share it with anyone who wants to change their life for the better, i want you to know i have nothing to gain from this.
i am very greatful to all of you who have contributed to helping me on this journey which began a little more than a year ago, you guys are grrrreat, thank you.
http://www.thesecret.tv/.
IC,
I get it. Thank you very much for sharing this with us.
All, if you find nothing of value in it, here's a thought, do not order it. Simply close the link and move on.
Love and Light,
~Brigid
dear fellow sojourners (i love addressing y'all as such!).
i have found myself in a very "odd" sort of space lately.
in this space, i am having some very very strange and "deep" dreams.
hmmmm.....much food for thought here. Thank you for responding. The "she-wolf's insatiable hunger" resonates here with an aspect of my personality (one that I feel "threatens" my son?)
Dams---yes. Good.
Frannie: My son is 4 years old. I do stand in a place where I could "lose" him. I won't get too personal but this thought terrifies me. And it could be due to my inner she-wolf's insatiable hunger (for knowledge and soul-evolution).
Snakes to me are a very good omen----when they're alive! They must be alive. They signify (to me) the soul's evolution--constantly shedding its skin and rebirthing into something new. When they are dead...this is not so good. To me, it feels like perhaps I have a choice between motherhood and my own personal growth. I, of course, must choose my obligations and maternal instinct but at such a great cost? Is there no way to have my cake (of light) and eat it too?
Thanks,
~Brigid
dear fellow sojourners (i love addressing y'all as such!).
i have found myself in a very "odd" sort of space lately.
in this space, i am having some very very strange and "deep" dreams.
Dear fellow Sojourners (I love addressing y'all as such!)
I have found myself in a very "odd" sort of space lately. In this space, I am having some very very strange and "deep" dreams. Now, while I can read someone's Tarot or dreams like nobody's business (usually), I am baffled and disturbed at what is being visited upon me lately.
Here goes:
The other night I had the following dream:
I am walking through friendly city streets at dusk (a city I have never visited outside of dreamstate but very cool). I am walking with a large group of friends but the streets are empty other than our group. We are walking, talking, having fun. Then my pace slows....I cannot keep up with my friends. Then I look down and notice I am holding my son who's asleep. And a downpour has begun. My friends are now nowhere in sight---I'm looking and looking for them. The sky has darkened. Now what happens next really freaks me out...I look down and I am surrounded by dead, bloated snakes. In my belief system dead snakes are not good. I'm calling out to other goddess worshippers here--am I missing something?! Is there light at the end of this tunnel?
What happens next wakes me up in a cold sweat. A she-wolf is upon me, growling and snapping at me--not for me, I intuit, but for my son. I am really disturbed by this and would appreciate any serious insight anyone could offer.
Love and Light,
~Brigid
