i have 2 blogs. one is for personal rants and general reviews. the other is an online novel experiment. unfortunately, i can't divulge either as they would reveal my identity. calliopé
Calliope
JoinedPosts by Calliope
-
3
Who keeps a blog?
by sass_my_frass inadvertise yours in the space below!
well i guess i just wanted to check some of yuz out.
-
-
-
32
Toronto, Canada
by Calliope inrecanting on a previous thread where i commented on the unlikelihood of ever meeting any of you... .
i've just been advised that i will be shipped to toronto for training in a couple weeks.
now, i'm not saying i want to meet anyone.
-
-
Calliope
recanting on a previous thread where i commented on the unlikelihood of ever meeting any of you...
i've just been advised that i will be shipped to Toronto for training in a couple weeks.
now, i'm not saying i want to meet anyone. there is slight trepidation to losing my anonymity...
but would anyone be interested in coffee/beer?
calliopé -
31
I had that "itch" over the weekend.
by jojochan inyou know the feeling...seperation anxiety.
after that relationship with that "woman" went down the toilet i noticed one creepy thing.
i had way too much time on my hands.
-
-
Calliope
hey jojo,
it's been awesome to see your metamorphosis during your trial/ordearl. she has no hold over you!
and just a thought from a woman's perspective (and i'm not saying this is all women), but it appears to me like she's playing mind-games with you. it's not like she can't go out and buy a new one. it's a friggin CD!!??!? it seems to me, she's trying to make you feel bad.
keep your coaster.
cheers.
calliopé -
13
take patience out of the equation - a rant
by Calliope inhere's my weekly rant.
and i've concluded i'll probably never meet any of you, and those of you that i secretly know, will never realize who i am, so what is there to lose?
i've lost already.. i'm so g'damn tired.
-
-
Calliope
i'm a huge albert camus fan and have read the myth of sysiphus...
(i'm also a huge nick drake fan).
anyway, thanks for the suggestion. i'm just slightly volatile at night, but in the morning, things always appear better.
calliopé
of the possibly-bipolar class... (jk) -
29
littérateurs unite
by Calliope inokay, so first guy i fell in love with had read papillon and one hundred year of solitude.
i was sold.
the second guy i fell in love with... knew who kafka was.
-
-
Calliope
the double is my fav Dostoyevski book.
about oprah. i wholeheartedly agree. I CAN'T STAND HER. sorry for yelling. i don't understand how she made it, she is one of the worst interviewers i've ever been made to watch.
but i'm reading james frey's book, cause i wrote a near similar one and i think he plagarized from me... well, he could've if i had had mine published.
but, i'm glad i almost had you infamous (wink / nudge).
calliopé -
28
not posting so much lately
by ballistic ini haven't been posting so much recently, but it's not because i've had enough of you all.
actually it's for a good reason.. my firm enrolled me on a home study course in a field similar to my current career but slightly more advanced.. ironically, several weeks after me enrolling on the course, they announced my department is being outsourced to india and we are all to loose our jobs at the end of march.. strangely enough, i'm not too worried about that, it's happened to me 3 times before with the same firm and i always found something else.
in fact, i might not even bother.
-
-
Calliope
the whole outsourcing to india is very interesting topic in itself...
but on a more serious note:
"I am financially secure for the first time in my life and could quite easily take a few years off if I feel like it."
ummm, i make a really good wife. just give it some thought eh?
calliopé -
28
not posting so much lately
by ballistic ini haven't been posting so much recently, but it's not because i've had enough of you all.
actually it's for a good reason.. my firm enrolled me on a home study course in a field similar to my current career but slightly more advanced.. ironically, several weeks after me enrolling on the course, they announced my department is being outsourced to india and we are all to loose our jobs at the end of march.. strangely enough, i'm not too worried about that, it's happened to me 3 times before with the same firm and i always found something else.
in fact, i might not even bother.
-
-
Calliope
o, and CONGRATS!!!! were also in order. cal.
-
29
littérateurs unite
by Calliope inokay, so first guy i fell in love with had read papillon and one hundred year of solitude.
i was sold.
the second guy i fell in love with... knew who kafka was.
-
-
Calliope
thanks for the insight. as a result i have a list of books to attack once i rotate through the current 4.
the following are books i have retained from your comments:
Diary by Chuck Palahniuck (title sounds interesting, and Fight Club was on my top 20 list, but the review i read stated "it's starting to feel like Chuck Palahniuk is trying too hard.")
Your Vigor for Life Appalls Me, a book of Robert Crumb's letters 1958-1977 (that's how i feel most days... sounds like a good read)
Tobacco by Iain Gately (that's all you have to say)
Moby Dick (i have yet to read this one)
A tale of two cities (that reminded me of not having read this one either)
thanks everyone,
calliopé -
13
take patience out of the equation - a rant
by Calliope inhere's my weekly rant.
and i've concluded i'll probably never meet any of you, and those of you that i secretly know, will never realize who i am, so what is there to lose?
i've lost already.. i'm so g'damn tired.
-
-
Calliope
here's my weekly rant.
and i've concluded i'll probably never meet any of you, and those of you that i secretly know, will never realize who i am, so what is there to lose? i've lost already.
i'm so g'damn tired. and the thought of jumping back on the monday conveyor belt of work is killing me... among other things. i've drank myself into a stupor, and i've smoked the last cigarette, and i'm high as jane can lead me.
and for what?
this life stinks. when does it get better? well, let's be candid here... it doesn't really get any better, right? for those of us who feel this is it. this is all there is. we'll either blow ourselves into oblivion or we'll die and never know the end of this human story.
i remember when i was younger, and forced into therapy, telling my psychologist, that all i wanted to do was find the exit sign that would lead me out of this world. and that's why i was also in aa, because in thinking alcohol would bring me to the exit sign, i also formed a dependance on the beautiful clear, mind-altering beverages.
10 years later, i've convinced myself that i am cured.
alas. no.
i feel like the cancer patient in fight club. chloe:
“ i am in a pretty lonely place. no one will have sex with me. i'm so close to the end and all i want is to get laid for the last time. i have pornographic movies in my apartment, and lubricants and amyl nitrate...”
not literally. (i apologize for the insensitivity). but close.
i've never really been single before. i feel pathetic and ultra dependant. and i've always been told that i was so patient and independant. but i'm really neither. there is no other choice but to wait. yes you can make things happen. but then there are things you cannot make happen. so what then? patience.
i'm sick of being patient. so what then? there are only to options left. if you can't wait on things, then subtract that from the equation. and what are the two options? mind-altering substances. death.
if you don't question these things. then you never encounter these choices. consider yourself fortunate.
and hence the rant.
tomorrow, i'll head to work as usual. put in a 9 hour day. skip lunch. come up with some good ideas. chair the team meeting. encourage the new employees. cajole the weak. bs my manager. work out for an hour. head home. think of something to eat. end up not eating it. drink a glass of wine. smoke a couple cigarettes. and end it all with a good ol' bout of insomnia.
and hurray, let's plan for a stellar tuesday.
good night and thank you for listening.
calliopé
-
5
what happens when the news leaks out...
by Calliope ini've split from my husband.
he first da-ed himself, which shocked the nation of family and friends.
and now, we've seperated.. note: i have, since the da-ing "incident", begun fading, but i live 1000s of miles from the nation of family and friends so they are clueless as to where i am at.. so now that people are hearing that we are seperated (although i have yet to tell any elder, so that in itself should be interesting) i've been getting the weirdest phone calls from wit friends i haven't heard from all year... and this morning, i received an email from an old brother in my parents hall back home.
-
-
Calliope
so, as few of you know,
i've split from my husband. he first da-ed himself, which shocked the nation of family and friends. and now, we've seperated.
note: i have, since the da-ing "incident", begun fading, but i live 1000s of miles from the nation of family and friends so they are clueless as to where i am at.
so now that people are hearing that we are seperated (although i have yet to tell any elder, so that in itself should be interesting) i've been getting the weirdest phone calls from wit friends i haven't heard from all year... and this morning, i received an email from an old brother in my parents hall back home. he was always very fond of me... this was the email:
One Flaw In Women
By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements."Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
But I won't," the Lord protested."I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman."But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak,"the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.