You know that new insurances do not like to take people with pre existing conditions.
Not necessarily true.
Explore your options.
You might even consider 'Legal Separation'. I think you still maintain insurance this way.
Find a job with a large company that has benefits. No problem with insurance that way.
Rent a room.
Heck, it seems that you have experience as a caregiver (if I'm reading your posts right - or from what we've heard about your husband, you are probably an expert). Oftentimes there are elderly people who just need someone in the house with them at night and will offer free room and board in exchange for having a quiet, responsible, capable person to help them during the night and keep them company a few evenings a week. You could have a full-time job, a place to stay, food to eat and start saving for retirement. You could even take vacations with people who want to be with you.
Like I said, explore your options. You seem to have so much fun inside of you and the people around you just keep punching it back inside. There's no excuse for that sort of inhumanity.
-Denise aka Aude (Dare to Know.)
PS: About the drug situation. I have friends at a few different drug companies. They've all told me that programs are in place to provide continued medication to people with financial hardships. This is especially true if they have already been using the drug successfully. You can do a little research by finding out who the manufacturers are and contacting them. It can be done. It's done everyday.