It has definitely been a good run so far.
Thanks for the kind thoughts.
it was 19 years ago today that i met my life partner mitch.
i love him so much it aches.
he has saved me from disaster .
It has definitely been a good run so far.
Thanks for the kind thoughts.
the bible students taught that christs return in 1914, would be preceded by an invisible presence from 1874.. when these prophecies failed, judge rutherford revised the teachings, and said that christs return in 1914 was also invisible, and that the world had ended (invisibly!!
) in 1914. hence "the world has ended - millions now living will never die" talk.. even when we were studying in 1969, we were taught that christ had already come.. in 1993 the district a$$embly talks gave new interpretations of mark 13, luke 21, and matt 24, and said that many of the features we had been told applied from 1914 were actually still in the future.
this meant that he could not have come in 1914.. christ did not sit down on his glorious throne in 1914. hence noolite on the sheep and goats parable.. people "faint out of fear" was not at the threat of nuclear annihilation, but terror at the "celestial phenomena" (glorified fireworks, actually) let off by jehoobie to terrorize those who had not bought the witchtower.. now we see it in black and white:.
I do agree that 1914 will be phased out. But I do not believe
they will talk about new dates. They will pull off something
like. You should look at the current signs around you to
know that the end must be near. The chronology stuff will
all fade away. People can't understand it anyway. There
will be more annointed. There will always be some annointed
around, to keep up the mythology and to keep the guys at the
top legit.
it was 19 years ago today that i met my life partner mitch.
i love him so much it aches.
he has saved me from disaster .
It was 19 years ago today that I met my life partner Mitch.
I love him so much it aches. He has saved me from disaster
many times.
It makes him cry to watch me sob over the loss of my family.
We have built a good life together. I am thankful.
reasons.. 1. china has a horrible human rights record.. 2. they are evaporating the us economy.. stop buying.
tell your store manager you won't buy their products..
I already boycott WalMart, they are evil.
1975, i started my senior year of high school.
there was no sign .
that the great tribulation was going to start in october.
1975, I started my senior year of high school. There was no sign
that the great tribulation was going to start in October. Peace
and Security had not been declared. Babylon the Great showed no
signs of falling. I got razzed a good bit at school about it because
even many non-witnesses knew that we were expecting the end of the
world that year.
I no longer cared about the razzing because for
the most part I was no longer a believer myself. I knew 1975 was
bogus. I was going to have a good time my senior year. I got a
job at McDonalds (the condition for me owning a car). Working at
McDonalds was horrible sweat shop labor. They would never allow
kids to be treated that way today. But I had a car. And you all
know what that means. I had freedom. I could move about on my
own free will. And so I did.
I tried to make up for lost time by diving into school and those
evil extra curricular activities. I was the President of the Foreign
Language Club, Treasurer of the Beta Club, Editor of the school
yearbook, Captain of the Academic Bowl team and a member of the
school's Math Team. I had a blast. All the bullys who had made
my life miserable since 7th grade seemed to disappear. I suppose
because I was acting more like a normal kid. Only one of two
held on to trying to torment me, mostly for being gay. They had
all figured it out, as much as I tried to deny it.
Oh my god, I wore silver rimmed, blue tinted glasses to school that
year. My Elton John look I suppose, but I had not considered how
gay it would look. I was going for a laid back bohemian look.
With the car, my mom and I no longer had to stand out by the street
in front of our house waiting for witnesses to pick us up for the
meetings. In these days, we didn't see much of my Dad. He stayed
out drinking with his workmates til way into the night most nights.
I sometimes would go days without seeing him. Of course I was
expected to take mom to all the meetings and out in service. I
no longer really paid attention at the meetings. I spent most of
my time ogling the cute brothers in the hall and hiding my adolescent
reaction to this under my bible. I avoided service at all costs,
claiming I had schoolwork to do.
I spent a lot of time with my high school friends. Just cruising
up and down the main street in Valdosta and hanging out at Shoney's.
My friends would pair up and make out. I would wish I could make
out with David, my first major love. I only had one date in high
school. I took a girl named Susan to see Monty Python and the
Holy Grail. This is not a good date movie, although I thought it
was hysterical and was forevermore hooked on Monty Python.
I was 5th in my class of 351 seniors. I exceled in all subjects
and loved being editor of the yearbook. I knew mom and especially
dad would never allow me to go to college. We had vicious fights
about it at home. They would not allow me to sign up for scholarships.
My teachers and counselors advised me to leave home. I was too
gifted not to follow my dreams they said. So I actually did fill
out an application for the local university, but mom and dad brought
over all my witness friends. I succumbed to peer pressure. I had
known these kids for years. We had grown up together. This was my
gang. My witness gang. I also had a worldly gang. I had fun
with both of them. What would I choose.
Well, I couldn't stand the thought of losing my witness friends, so
you guessed it. I didn't go to college. I therefore had no clue
what I was going to do for a living. My plan was to major in Math
and Statistics and become a college professor and researcher. On
a whim I sent my SAT scores to Stanford. I was in the 93rd percentile
of those that sent in their scores. I knew I could be accepted.
But no, I never applied.
One day at the breakfast table my sister in law suggested I try
banking. That's what she did. So, I tried it and quickly got a
job as a teller at a local bank.
Next Chapter: Someone dies, Someone leaves.
reasons.. 1. china has a horrible human rights record.. 2. they are evaporating the us economy.. stop buying.
tell your store manager you won't buy their products..
Consumers run the marketplace.
If we stop buying, companies will stop having things made in China.
reasons.. 1. china has a horrible human rights record.. 2. they are evaporating the us economy.. stop buying.
tell your store manager you won't buy their products..
Reasons.
1. China has a horrible human rights record.
2. They are evaporating the US economy.
Stop buying. Tell your store manager you won't buy their products.
http://www.iht.com/articles/2008/03/19/arts/obits.php.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwnmcu3u09w&feature=related.
rip mr. clarke.
his books make me start thinking of different possibilities
My favorite of his is Childhood's End. I've read it at least
10 times
i don't think you ever truly make peace with it, somehow you learn to maneveur and swim in it like most things.
i have been out for so long, it's almost like a shadowy memory when i was in, but for my family it is all they have ever known and dared to know.. i feel for the people whose parents have cut them out completely, but mine never truly did that.
i guess we just loved each other a little too much to even think about losing the other completely.
I think it is definitely better to be shunned completely. The back and forth thing
keeps you confused in your mind and your heart. Besides, they are supposed to
shun you completely. It makes it easier for everyone involved.
I wish they would stick to their rules. I would have been able to move on
with my life much better.
i don't think you ever truly make peace with it, somehow you learn to maneveur and swim in it like most things.
i have been out for so long, it's almost like a shadowy memory when i was in, but for my family it is all they have ever known and dared to know.. i feel for the people whose parents have cut them out completely, but mine never truly did that.
i guess we just loved each other a little too much to even think about losing the other completely.
Well, I have similar experience and feelings.
I am out 20 years this year. My mom still really
doesn't think I don't believe it anymore and
when I even hint that I have a different belief
system she starts telling me how it makes her
physically ill to think I'm no longer a witness.
The only good times she can remember from our
lives is when we were out in service together.
Great. She was happy. I am insanely miserable.
In shear mental agony almost the whole time I
was in field service and at the meetings.
Boring repetitive heinous agony.
My mom and dad didn't want kids, they wanted
pets. I asked my dad once what his favorite
memories of me and my brother were. He said
he liked it when we were small and he could
completely control us.
My parents don't know me. They can recognize
my physical body, but my spirit and mind are
totally unknown to them because they just block
it out. I'm not sure if it would have been different
if they were not witnesses.
My whole family has blocked me out. They don't
actually shun me. But the don't allow me to talk
about my life or my beliefs or feelings or desires
or dreams. They never did.
I don't have a family. I have recently realized
that I no longer have any love for any of them. It
has simply died after a lifetime of trying to get
them to want to know me and love me for who I am.
And this goes far beyond the gay thing. Its just
feelings about life in general. Politics, history,
art, love, war, peace, trees. You name it, I'm
a stranger in their midst.
I'll see my relatives two more times. At my parents'
funerals which I will attend out of respect, but not
love.