Posts by beachbugg

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Why shouldn't I be a JW?

by AirDuster in

hi, i am brand new to these forums.

i have been reading some stuff for a while from here and other websites.

i feels totally crazy being a member now.

beachbugg

lol Uncle....I'm a cheesy Walt Disney type of gal..my heart leads me.

I don't need to know the facts of why it's wrong to drown puppies....my "conscience" tells me it's better to kiss 'em.

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My story

by beachbugg in

it's really good to read stories of other people that have experienced some of the same things i have.

i haven't ever posted or even talked to another ex-jw except for my uncle who i have just recently started a relationship with.

the sad thing is that i am 30 years old and i am still struggling with the past....i'm soo sick of it.

beachbugg

Out of curiousity...what religion have you found if any?

I ask because I was so scared of stepping foot into another church for soooo long. When lightning didn't strike me down the first time I did..then I was worried of getting sucked back into something that was going to control my life again.

I found my own personal home in a first united methodist church because they encourage you to learn and experience other religions. They don't tell anyone what to believe...just simply provide a place to worship.

Nobody will ever be able to convince me of one "right way to worship", I believe there is only what is right for YOU.

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Why shouldn't I be a JW?

by AirDuster in

hi, i am brand new to these forums.

i have been reading some stuff for a while from here and other websites.

i feels totally crazy being a member now.

beachbugg

Follow your conscience.

When I truly left, it had nothing to do with hard facts...that came later...it had EVERYTHING to do with my heart. If your heart tells you to stay then stay, but there must be a reason that you are here and questioning your belief.

My dad is a devout JW and I fault him nothing for that. He is not hypocrytical and he believes in it with his whole being. (bless his heart)

My conscience (which I was always taught to follow) would not allow me to be a part of something that caused so many GOOD people so much pain and heartache...point blank.

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Who do you love more?

by serendipity in

my uncle ocasionally complains about how my aunt loves her adult children more than him because she's always thinking about them, worrying about them and reaching out to them.

i think that's a surprising viewpoint because i thought that most mothers (and many fathers) love their children above all others.. do you think that's true?

should a parent love their children more than the spouse (or significant other)?

beachbugg

I guess I'm the odd man out here...and a little scared to say it but wth...I love my husband more.

I have a 12 year old daughter that I love very much, don't get me wrong, and maybe it's not fair to say "more" because it's a different love.

In a few years she'll be starting her own life...and it will be my ever-lovin husband that I start and finish every day with.

He says the finishing is a whole lot better than the start......bedhead is sexy on tv but I am SCARY in the mornings (think CeCe Deville).

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Bad, bad Brother W.!

by Virgochik in

i am out on sick leave from work today, but a friend called me at home to say there was a big scene made at the office!.

brother w., an employee, went off on his supervisor, and called her a b*tch in front of onlookers, including the union steward!

it will be hard for the union to defend this.

beachbugg

Tattling is one of the major things that I hated about the witnesses. So many people felt the prerogative to be involved in other's lives and then feel self-righteous about being a rat. Don't stoop to that level.......please.

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Mayem at a High School Basketball Game!

by Billygoat in

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you have to watch this.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubypanc57ik&search=autistic%20basketball%20player.

beachbugg

yeah I cried too!

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My story

by beachbugg in

it's really good to read stories of other people that have experienced some of the same things i have.

i haven't ever posted or even talked to another ex-jw except for my uncle who i have just recently started a relationship with.

the sad thing is that i am 30 years old and i am still struggling with the past....i'm soo sick of it.

beachbugg

No I don't believe it is the truth...when I was attending meetings sometimes the speaker would say something or read something from the Watchtower and it would sound ridiculous to me. I'd look around sometimes and wonder if it was just me.

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My story

by beachbugg in

it's really good to read stories of other people that have experienced some of the same things i have.

i haven't ever posted or even talked to another ex-jw except for my uncle who i have just recently started a relationship with.

the sad thing is that i am 30 years old and i am still struggling with the past....i'm soo sick of it.

beachbugg

Thanks for the welcome!

It's amazing how good it feels to just get it out. Although it's a little odd that complete strangers now know more about my past than anyone in my life now.

You guys are a great bunch and thank you for all of the kind replies!

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Did anyone actually enjoy field service?

by Check_Your_Premises in

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did anyone ever actually admit it if they hated it?.

cyp

beachbugg

I always hated field service!

Sometimes I would pretend to knock on the door but actually never touch it....of course I could only do it when one of my friends went to the door with me.

I lied on my time sheet too..........but I did enjoy the doughnut breaks!

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My story

by beachbugg in

it's really good to read stories of other people that have experienced some of the same things i have.

i haven't ever posted or even talked to another ex-jw except for my uncle who i have just recently started a relationship with.

the sad thing is that i am 30 years old and i am still struggling with the past....i'm soo sick of it.

beachbugg

It's really good to read stories of other people that have experienced some of the same things I have. I haven't ever posted or even talked to another ex-JW except for my Uncle who I have just recently started a relationship with.

The sad thing is that I am 30 years old and I am still struggling with the past....I'm soo sick of it. I quit going to meetings when I was 16 and put into a foster home. It was a relief but it also came at a price. I was disfellowshipped at 14 and again at 20. Before I was disfellowshipped the first time I was put on "public reproof" which is not much different than disfellowshipping. Worldly kids were "bad association" for me and I was "bad association" for witness kids. I thought about suicide all the time. Somehow I made it through my teen years...I married at 17 had a baby at 18...and moved 2500 miles away from my family at 19.

It may sound like I didn't have a close relationship with my family but it's so hard to explain. Everything is good on the surface, we love each other very much, I'm just so fake around them because I nod my head when they talk about the "importance of coming back to the truth." There is so much anger and hurt when I think about what could have been, but I try not to go there. That religion ripped my family apart. I have a 42 year old sister who spent most of her life on drugs and is now somewhere in Oregon homeless. Our mom got cancer when she was 15 and I guess my sister didn't take things well...alot of people said that she was basically posessed by demons.Anyways, our mom was out of it and dad was at work so the "sisters" in the congregation took care of mom at home and gave my sister a hard time...so she left home...at 15. Our mom died that year and my sister wasn't allowed to come to her funeral.I didn't see her much after that. My brother was 13 when all of this happened..I was 4.

To make a very long story short..we were kids and each and every one of us were on our own by the age of 16 and it had everything to do with the religion. I don't know how anybody can stomach being a part of a religion that does the cruelest things in the name of love. The last time I was disfellowshipped I went back to meetings for six months until I was reinstated so that my dad could talk to me...and then I steered clear of any contact with Witnesses except for the occasional phone calls with family.

Currently, I am successful in my career, I'm happily married with a beautiful 12 year old daughter, I have many GREAT friends...but when something upsets me I go right back to where I was so many years ago. Lonely and feeling like nobody can understand. Sometimes my husband gets upset because my nature is to be very private...I call it private, he calls it secretive. Anyways, I guess it's just a long process.

Thanks for listening!