Posts by Nowman

as a result they prove the jw theory that says "whoever leaves jehovah's organisation won't make it" right.. it's difficult for me to say this, but it seems like jw's are partly right on this one.. why do most ex-dubs end up in a predicament of some sort?

Nowman

I think if people have been raised in a cult time religion, and get out, some will go down the road of self-destruction and some will not. This applies to all fanatical cult religions. When I 1st left at 18 (16 years ago), I went out into the real world for the 1st time wanting to experience all I could but I never realized how hurt I really was or how it affected my life. I had to learn through life experience. Alot of JWs get DFd, go down the path of self-destruction out of fear, get in trouble, etc...then they wind up returning because they believed the JWs were right, it is Satan, I need to go back...or they have no where else to go...all because of the cult mentality.

It is not about the JWs being right (in fact that is how they brainwash you), being raised in a cult in my case was abuse. I can't change what happened but I made sure I was going to have a bright future no matter what...

I started living life once I got over the gulit of leaving because it was all I ever knew.

Nikki

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Baby name suggestions?

by JimmyPage in

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boy or girl names, don't know for sure which as of yet.

preferably something with apostate or rock musician connotations.

i thought of "stevie ray" as in stevie ray vaughan and as a tribute to both steven hassan and ray franz but it sounds a bit too redneck for my taste.

Nowman

My two year old daughter is Delanie Parker (could spell it Delaney too, call her Laney)

Boy = I always liked Parker (hence the reason why we used it for Delanie's middle name), if we had a boy it would have been Parker Matthew, or Parker Mitchell etc...

Nikki

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Your Stories or Poems

by compound complex in

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dear friends,.

please share your original short or short-short stories and poetry with us.. i'll start the ball rolling .... .

i wander as i wonder.

Nowman

"The Expression"

Allay the harshness in the expression

There is extremity in this place please move

A jovial practice is what is favorable but

the practice is distorted and twisted

What a shame a voice says

but everyone is bound by his own injury

We yell, we yell, but not even one exclusive person hears us!

Treasure your life and your race before you

Grope for endurance, reach for vitality

and you will have the right expression

I wrote this in 1990 when I was 16, I was a JW teenager that expressed herself through poetry.

I had submitted this into a contest too, supported by the Library of Congress, but my JW parents would not let

me buy the volume it was published in because they thought my poem was weird and that I didn't mean any of it.

Yet, my parents were not very poetic

Nikki

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JW Teens Can Be Very Mischevious..... And Other Internet Observations.

by AllTimeJeff in

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when i first got the internet in 1998, i was out in fs with 2 young bros in their teens, best friends.

they wanted to check their email, and i said that they could use the computer.. i went upstairs, and found them in a chat room.

(this was before the first article on chat rooms, i think.

Nowman

I was a mischevious JW teen girl. I was the typical "lived a double life" JW, I went to school and became "worldy", I came back home and became "the good JW daughter". It was so stressful LOL.

Nikki

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The Secret Pioneer School Manual

by WuzLovesDubs in

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i saw one up close and personal because the jw annointed sister who was studying with me, told me that if i looked up every scripture in her (illegally gotten before the school started) pioneer school book and cut it out of old green nwts and pasted them in the margins, it would make her a stronger pioneer and jehovah would reward me.

and in the process i would learn where things were in the bible.. gosh what an incredible honor i was blessed with!

you know i did it..i didnt know a damn thing.

Nowman

I went to pioneer school in 91 or 92 in Northern Illinois, I don't remember a manual, but I remember it was like going to a meeting for 2 straight weeks, or was it one week??

I enjoyed pioneer school because I had some friends in the school with me, and I also got away from my strict JW parents.

Nikki

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Things You'd Like To Say But Stifle Yourself From Saying

by minimus in

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due to the fact that my mother and some other relatives and a handful of friends are devout jehovah's witnesses, i sometimes stifle my remarks regarding "the truth".. my mother asked me if i felt bad at all for not attending the memorial this year.

(she still holds hope i might come back).

i simply said that i did not feel bad at all.

Nowman

Don't tell anyone about your inclinations John Doe, OK? I am not ready to take my relationship to that level with you yet, I barely know you!

Nowman

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Things You'd Like To Say But Stifle Yourself From Saying

by minimus in

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due to the fact that my mother and some other relatives and a handful of friends are devout jehovah's witnesses, i sometimes stifle my remarks regarding "the truth".. my mother asked me if i felt bad at all for not attending the memorial this year.

(she still holds hope i might come back).

i simply said that i did not feel bad at all.

Nowman

John Doe-

I actually should change my user name, it was an accident when I joined this site in 2006, I just never changed it. It sure is not a "freindly" username which could be why I am such a thread killer. Yet, maybe its because loose lips sink ships.

There is an important point about my username, but if I told you, Id have to kill you! So, its best left between me, myself, and I. If you were in my shoes at this point...you probably would do the same thing...

Nikki-for sure a woman

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Things You'd Like To Say But Stifle Yourself From Saying

by minimus in

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due to the fact that my mother and some other relatives and a handful of friends are devout jehovah's witnesses, i sometimes stifle my remarks regarding "the truth".. my mother asked me if i felt bad at all for not attending the memorial this year.

(she still holds hope i might come back).

i simply said that i did not feel bad at all.

Nowman

Loose lips sink ships...my motto although sometimes you need to speak what is on your mind when appropriate. What's appropriate, how the hell do I know? I go with my instinct.

Since only my parents were JWs, I never had to watch what I said around them because they chose not to talk to me anyway, so my response is based on how I handle anyone I come in contact with.

Nikki