i wanted to tell my story for sometime.
i've been a member of jwn for a few months and a lurker even longer.
here's my story.
One thing you could say is that you could not take the stress of taking on responsibilities, as you feel that stress played a part in your earlier indiscretion.
Your wife seems wonderful. You will be in a hard place now, as she is die-hard JW, and you do not want to hurt her. For now, just try to do fun things together when you can, and gradually fade somewhat.
i have been on this site daily, almost from its beginning, since i left the jws in 2001, but i have been more of a reader than a poster, as you can see from my post count.
i know few here know me, although i know many of you through reading your posts.
maybe it is not right to ask for support, when i generally stay quietly in the background of this forum, but i want only to speak a human misery of the deepest kind.
So glad that you are reading from sources that let you know that grieving may take many forms, and not follow a certain steady path.
I have not lost a child, but I have lost both of my parents, and that after I spent thirty years keeping them at a long arm's length, as I felt they were "not good association" as they were not JWs. My dad died before I was completely "out" and by the time I could have told my mother, she no longer had the mental capacity to understand.
It is all hard, very hard....
i am new here as a member who posts.
i am a 18 years old boy, born in, baptized.
i read regularly the posts here on jwn.
Welcome, will be.
Please don't feel bad about the depression...it is devastating to find out that what we so sincerely believed is not true after all, and that we, like all others before us, will die. But you are young and hopefully that will not happen for a long time. Please formulate some goals for yourself. If you go to college, and I strongly suggest you do, you will have to take some core classes that teach you just general stuff. Perhaps you will find something that you are really interested in and start going down this path.
Please do not go to the Kingdom Hall and stand up and start telling everyone they are wrong. For one thing, you need to get some more facts for yourself. Keep doing some research. Using your mind will help you to feel less depressed and keep you focused.
Also, please do not use freedom as an excuse for dangerous conduct that you will regret later. You don't have to be a Witness to be a good and caring person.
from the family radio website last month--.
we were even so bold as to insist that the bible guaranteed that christ would return on may 21 and that the true believers would be raptured.
yet this incorrect and sinful statement allowed god to get the attention of a great many people who otherwise would not have paid attention.
Too bad he didn't read some old Watchtowers from around 1976-he could have used their nifty phrase "Some were running ahead of God's organization."
I know I look old and tired from frantically doing everything (and still feeling guilty) that I could in that organization for over thirty years. If I could just have back the time I spent cleaning bathrooms at the KHall and Assemblies I'd be less tired and old!
only it's not the jehovah's witnesses doing it.. http://www.ultimatetube.com/videos/702/true-revival-in-china-a-must-see-video.
people are raised from the dead
So with their one child policy-if you can't have two kids, maybe you can get great-grandpa back and diaper him!
i was in for 50 years.
life on hold, always waiting for an end that didn't come.
sacrificing so many things.
Congratulations! So happy to see that you are enjoying life!
It is good to reflect:
In for thirty years.
1. Have same husband-he is out with me, after being elder for over twenty years.
2. Updated our home....looks like we can enjoy it a while longer since the big A is not sooooooo close.
3. Take vacations with non-JW family members now, instead of spending money on motels for Conventions.
4. No tatoos, am sixty and don't want to see anything drooping as skin sags.
5. Really enjoy birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, Mother's Day and Father's Day.
6. Can enjoy taking a walk on Saturday morning without wearing dress clothes and carrying a heavy book bag.
7. Will graduate from college in one year (have to work full time-didn't save for retirement) and though I won't be able to start a new and exciting career, do feel the sense of accomplishment that comes with tackling all the classes and feel the love of learning instead of "we have done the research for you."
check it out..
Jehovah's Happy People....No Part Of The World
hi everyone, i would like to introduce myself and tell my story.
from the standpoint of being one of jehovahs witnesses, my whole family is deeply involved as i was the 5th generation of witness and any children that my brothers or sister have will be the sixth generation.
as some of my brothers and sisters are grandparents, i guess that makes their grandchildren a potential 7th generation.
Welcome!
My husband and I voluntarily started studying in 1973, moving quickly so that we could come in "in the last remaining months before Armageddon." We stayed in over thirty years, and my husband was an elder for twenty. How we wish we could get those years back.....
westboro baptist church family disowns daughter.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50r0cnkq7_k.
A further thought-when the old man dies that is "in charge" of all the hatred, they will probably go through a period of dissention and power grabbing within their ranks. Hopefully some will see the hateful beliefs for what they are.
