Don't give up man. You have worked too long and too hard to get where you are today. I can only imagine how you must be feeling, been close myself, but it will get better. Rely on your friends here, and lean on all of us for the support you need at this crucial hour. I, for one, enjoy your posts, and would sadly miss your contributions to our discussions. Chin up man, it can only get better from here.
Stealth