I used to pray for years I was so thankful I was born in because I would never have believed it if I wasn't.
Edited to add: Sorry, forgot to answer the part about making it my own. I think because you life is just so immersed with the activities, you don't even consider there are any other options. All the meetings, service, conventions, activities...it's the greater part of your life...everything else is secondary. So I guess it was more "this is my life." I had niggles all along about things that didn't make sense to me, even as a teen a million years ago. Also, knew a lot of nice people. We spent a year as a need greater when I was 15, and knowing some of the finest, kindest people made a lasting impression.
It took me too long to leave though.