Decki, you are a thriver, not just a survivor and you will no doubt take these hard knocks gracefully, yet with vigor. (that sound like a great lyric for a song, dibs on copyright! LOL).
i see the Decki i know coming out more and more each day, and while you think that might be a bad thing, i see it as a wonderous re-transformation. i dont know why people have this inate desire to hurt you, you are a sweetheart.
Take the kind words that you are being given here on this thread and use them for support, they are honest and sincere and coming from people who really know you.
-txtiger