Posts by Siraphina

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Apology

by Siraphina in

i would like to apologize to the forum for posting my story twice about my relationship with a lesbian jw.

i was sure my computer had a glitch and it didn't get posted originally as a result.

that is why i posted a second time, obviouly unaware.

Siraphina

Thank you for the welcome! Please forgive me if I post more than once. Apparently, I'm much more "computer illiterate" than I thought! I'm learning, hopefully! Siraphina

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Non-Witness in Love with Lesbian Witness

by Siraphina in

i'm hoping someone here can help, advise or councel me regarding my dilemma because i'm desperate and dying inside.

here is my story: i'm an out, non-witness lesbian in love with an active jw lesbian.

she's very much in love with me as well but her guilt as a result of her religion is emotionally devistating her.

Thank you all very much for your responses. I truly appreciate your taking the time to offer your support regarding my situation. As of last night, and only a matter of hours after my recent posting, my girlfriend said she couldn't continue our relationship as much as she loves me. The Elders from her congregation actually phoned her asking to see her next Saturday to explain why she hasn't gone to her meetings. She is going to be honest with them and wants to "repent" if only not to lose her loved ones. Her loyalty and desire for her religion is something I can't compete with. We both knew it would end like this. We'll miss each other very much but she sees no other way. I'm grateful to everyone on this board for allowing me to share with them and more than anything, I appreciate your honesty. -Siraphina

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Apology

by Siraphina in

i would like to apologize to the forum for posting my story twice about my relationship with a lesbian jw.

i was sure my computer had a glitch and it didn't get posted originally as a result.

that is why i posted a second time, obviouly unaware.

Siraphina

I would like to apologize to the forum for posting my story twice about my relationship with a lesbian JW. I was sure my computer had a glitch and it didn't get posted originally as a result. That is why I posted a second time, obviouly unaware. Forgive me for repeating myself. I missed peoples' responses to it and it was a simple mistake on my part. Thank you for being supportive and offering kind words. -Siraphina

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Non-Witness in Love with Lesbian Witness

by Siraphina in

i'm hoping someone here can help, advise or councel me regarding my dilemma because i'm desperate and dying inside.

here is my story: i'm an out, non-witness lesbian in love with an active jw lesbian.

she's very much in love with me as well but her guilt as a result of her religion is emotionally devistating her.

Siraphina

I'm hoping someone here can help, advise or councel me regarding my dilemma because I'm desperate and dying inside. Here is my story: I'm an out, non-witness lesbian in love with an active JW lesbian. She's very much in love with me as well but her guilt as a result of her religion is emotionally devistating her. We met this past May (through an online lesbian personals website) and fell immediately for each other, as well as became best friends. I'm the only non-witness she's associated with and no one knows about our relationship because her family/friends will completely shun and disown her. As alien as that is to me, (my family/friends support me completely), I've accepted that fact without question because I love her so very much. Sidenote; I'm an atheist and believe it or not, the fact that we're so contrasting is what we cherish the most in our relationship. The past month she's been tormented by her feelings for me, her religion, which she was born into, and trying to reconcile the two. If she chooses me, she is disowned. If she chooses her religion, she says she can't be an active JW and remain with me because the guilt is unbearable for her. She wants both but she insists she can't have both. Most of her life she's repressed her feelings for women and has been miserable about it. She says now her desires have become intolerable and she needs the love of a woman. She says she's found that with me. I've never seen anyone so tormented by religious guilt. Its self-flogging and self-depricating, anti-gay stance has such a hold on her. She's so good to me and the thought of her out of my life is causing me unspeakable heartbreak. Neither of us have ever been this in love before. It's killing me and my tears seem to be endless because her guilt tells her she can't go on living two lives and must make a decision. Therefore, she's suggested we separate for a month so she can have time to make that decision. We've agreed upon that. But I think I'm losing because I can't compete with a fanatical religion someone was born into. Heterosexual Witness and non-Witness couples rarely remain together. Nevermind lesbian couples. Is it unrealistic to believe we two could make it together? -Siraphina