Hey Path,
I understand completely. I post on sites like this because I can relate to others in the same boat. But, I've moved on. I don't worry about the WTS anymore, although I am somewhat concerned about others getting involved. Well, people make poor decisions. No one was there to tell me in my ignorance that I was probably making a mistake by becoming a witness. But then, do we need that? Or, should we make more informed choices.(speaking about those who had a choice, that is)
I expect that your concerns about the WTS will fade after a while. I know now that the WTS is a poor excuse for "God's organization". It's bogus, some call it a cult, and it can be damaging to family and friends. The sooner you can find other positive activities to fill the void, the better. There is much the "world" has to offer. Things that I missed out on in my eleven years of bondage. I'm glad to be free from the WTS, and I'm glad I can make positive choices on my own without the borg's help. We all have the ability to do that.
p.s. This reminds me, I think I'll scrap the handle "dubby" for my initials, T.R.