On days like today, when I allow myself to feel the pain of losing all my family...yes.
FreeChick
yes, no or maybe....and why?
On days like today, when I allow myself to feel the pain of losing all my family...yes.
FreeChick
my mom died last wednesday.
we buried her monday .
i am a bit numb still , she had been in ill health and i had tried to prepare myself for this day .
I just wish I could take comfort in a belief of life after death . Part of me wants to believe ,but a stronger part of me says " If something sounds to good to be true ...then it is TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE ....It drives me nuts not being able to commit to a belief . What is wrong with me ?
troubled mind, I lost my mom 3 1/2 years ago and speaking from experience, these feelings you have are completely natural. It takes time to sort through them...please don't be hard on yourself for not knowing the answers right now. I know how bad it all hurts. FreeChick
my mom died last wednesday.
we buried her monday .
i am a bit numb still , she had been in ill health and i had tried to prepare myself for this day .
((troubled mind)) I'm so sorry for your loss. Nothing can truly prepare us for the feelings that come from an event like this. You are absolutely wonderful for respecting your mother's wishes. Please take care of yourself.
FreeChick
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday dear free chick.
Howdy rowdies!
Just thought I would clarify that I'm not actually adopting and bring home a cute, little rug rat...just making sure one or more is fed! Thanks again for all the support here...
Hugs,
FreeChick
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday dear free chick.
WOW ((everyone)), I'm all teary in a good way here...thank you for all the b-day wishes!
So, I'm really very excited today...something close to my heart has come together just at this point in my life!
A little background...tried to make this short...
In my early 20's I worked for 5 years in the federal criminal justice system. Our office supervised defendants who were awaiting trial. As part of our duties, we performed complete background checks on them...family, health, criminal, etc. What an eye opening experience into the human psyche!
What came from that experience was the fact that kids have to be shown at an early age that there are alternatives in life and let them see positive opportunities. I knew I wanted to help somehow and for years thought about volunteering in a troubled teen facility...but it never really got me excited...excited enough to go find one to volunteer at! Then I thought about volunteering in an educational program to help younger children read and write...checked into quite a few...again not excited enough. So, about 4 years ago, I realized how difficult it is for someone to better themself if they aren't having their basic needs met...food, clothing shelter. Ahh, yep, that's it! I had specific ideas about what type of organization I wanted to be involved with and had trouble finding a match. Then, I had family obligations to take care of and got sidetracked yet again! It's really difficult to admit how I let everything sidetrack me from something I knew I needed to do in my life...something to help my spirituality.
Anyway, I was sharing a bottle of wine with my manager on Saturday night. We ended up having quite a heartfelt and deep discussion and at one point he asked me to share my life goals. Well, I want to finish my degree soon and be involved with an organization that will insure that children are fed everyday. Monday morning I check my work e-mail, and there it is...he found a local organization! I've been in touch with them and I will be adopting a child, and, more then likely, children in my community. The organization insures the child receives one healthy meal a day...it's a start!
I can't express how good it feels to finally realize this opportunity, it's that thing that makes me want to jump out of bed every morning and enjoy life!
Sooooo...on a MUCH less serious note...a local nightclub in town plays 80's music on Tuesdays! How appropriate is that?!?! I gotta go dust off my dancing shoes...
Thanks again!
FreeChick
PS-Many thanks for the b-day wishes Crumpet, Georgiegirl, UnConfused, Codeblue, Linda & Trev, Seawolfie, Purps, Juni, AudeSapere, Windchime, sspo, free2think, Do Not Call and a couple of PM's from people who don't celebrate b-days but wished me Happy B-Day anyway...lol
((GG/BG)) you inspired me to start a thread on moms. Let me get my thoughts together.
i'm off to barcelona in a month's time and wondered if any of you have been and could recommend hotels, restaurants, areas to visit etc?
WooHooooo...happy dance...Crumpet is going to Barcelona!!
How long will you be staying?
I agree about seeing everything Gaudi, even if the art isn't your taste. The Picasso museum is beautiful too. One surprise, though, I wasn't expecting all the graffitti everywhere.
Let me try to remember some places and get back you. I really enjoyed the tapas at Micky's on Las Ramblas. I sat at the bar there many hours on several occasions. It's a little difficult to plan anything there because businesses don't really keep set hours. They may open, they may not. Siesta is the best!!! Be ready to stay out LATE! Oh and I fell in love with the people, they were so warm and friendly...can't wait to go back again soon, very soon.
I'll PM a link to my pics later....
FreeChick
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday dear peppermint.
Happy Birthday, Peppermint. I hope you are having a wonderful day!
FreeChick
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday dear free chick.
Yippie Skippie! Aren't birthdays fun?!?!
I haven't been here long, but want to reach out and thank several people who have made a such a difference in my life recently. Of course, a big thanks to Simon for starting the board, which has been a source of much needed comfort to me. Then a group of wonderfully supportive gals: Codeblue, for being my big sister, Purplesofa, love ya for not being afraid to say it like it is and tell me when I'm full of it, AudeSapere, thank you for the relaxing days sipping coffee on your patio...looking foward to many more! And, last, but not least, Georgiegirl, well girl, you are the best! Love our chats and especially laughing...so happy you understand and appreciate my inner dorkiness. lol Oh, and love the fact that you need to travel as much as I do...can't wait to plan a vacation with ya.
Then, there is my mom, who I miss terribly at times like these and who I never needed to talk to so bad as in these last two weeks. She was so patient, caring and sensitive. We shared several birthdays before she passed. She loved to send a huge box filled with individually wrapped presents, which she would purchase over the year. A loving note would be attached on each describing why she purchased the item. Love ya mom, for all the sacrifices you made and all your love.
Well, I have exciting news to share with ya all, but I'm meeting a dear friend for a birthday surf session...tide will be perfect in an hour!
Hope everyone has a great day!
FreeChick
PS - Bubbles, thank you for starting the thread...and thank you for the birthday wishes Dansk, SadEmo, GG/BG, RAF, Peppermint, Lonelysheep and Kerjy!
yep my fade has come to a stop, got the phone call off my dad today he asked me if i celebrate christmas and birthdays and i said yes, and so he said they are going to go ahead with the disassociation letter i sent over two years ago!!!!..
he said that after today the only phone calls i will get are if there is an emergency, but nothing social my response to that was well you havnt seen or spoken to me for over a year im used to it.. he also said there was no bad feelings and that i should never doubt there love for me, and that the stupid thing of it is they can associate with mike and the kids just not me.. im really happy and calm about it, ive had my initial cry over it, and now i feel good that i dont have to lie and hide things anymore.. its such a relief.. luv ya all.
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(((Es)))
Take care...you, your husband and children will be in my thoughts.
FreeChick
its a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
Messy,
Welcome to the board! I hope you find the support and comfort you need right now.
Take care,
FreeChick