having been doubly mind-f*&ked by an organization that preaches peace and poor boundaries and a perfectionistic mother who hates conflict, i find myself still having great difficulty expressing my anger in a healthy way.
my past response when angry was to cry or turn the anger on myself and become self-destructive, ultimately leading to suicidal thoughts.
i find lately my subconscious percolating anger almost constantly.
It's funny, my brother has a Nintendo Wii system and I've been playing the boxing on there. My god, does it ever feel good to punch! I think a boxing class might be a good thing.
Good luck. Maybe you'll learn moves that will help you protect yourself or someone else one day. Plus, the excercise has to be good for you. It definitely gets the endorphins flowing.
common issues in post-cult recovery .
sense of purposelessness, of being disconnected.
they left a group that had a powerful purpose and intense drive; they miss the peak experiences produced from the intensity and the group dynamics.. depression.. grieving for other group members, for a sense of loss in their life.. guilt.
I can relate to nearly everything you wrote. It is getting better, but I can't believe how damaged they left me.
let's get a head count and give me some ideas.. changeling.
Well, it CAN'T be me! I don't wear panties!
BB
A likely story. Impossible to prove. Even if you were to -- SET THE CAMERA EQUIPMENT UP OVER HERE -- sorry about that. I was sayin, even if you were to prove that to us here once and for -- YEAH, LIKE THAT, NOW SET UP THE STROBES -- Ahem! So, if you were to prove that here right now, that still wouldn't mean that you didn't -- GREAT JOB, NOW JUST WAIT FOR ME TO GIVE YOU THE SIGNAL -- As I was saying, it wouldn't mean that you didn't just get through ditching them to draw attention way from yourselves. Not to mention that ditching your panties is a horrible way to take attention away from yourselves anyway.
let's get a head count and give me some ideas.. changeling.
There is only room for one MAN to wear WOMEN'S panties in this castle!!
You seem to have access to an AWFULLY LOT of information that only the killer would know.... Hmmmmm......
Oh Changling, dear, could you have the help take away the killer please. I'm afraid she's planning her next target as we speak....
having been doubly mind-f*&ked by an organization that preaches peace and poor boundaries and a perfectionistic mother who hates conflict, i find myself still having great difficulty expressing my anger in a healthy way.
my past response when angry was to cry or turn the anger on myself and become self-destructive, ultimately leading to suicidal thoughts.
i find lately my subconscious percolating anger almost constantly.
It's a desire to completely disregard everyone's feelings around me and disappear for awhile.
I've done this. It doesn't make anything better. It only makes things worse.
It sounds like you need a break though. I hope you are able to take one. And remember, above everything else, it's TOTALLY OK to love yourself, pamper yourself, baby yourself, and demonstrate that you value your own health and sanity above everything else. That's the completely healthy form of selfish.
Good luck!
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let's get a head count and give me some ideas.. changeling.
They were all found sans panties.
Exactly!!! Someone stole their MANties. Hmmm, was it Flipper? Did he want everyone's manties? I don't think so. And I simply don't have any use for the masculine variety. So, by process of elimination, the person with the previously hidden fixation with manties, must be BB!
it's been a while since i posted here- i frequently lurk, but have been busy with work, life, and not letting the fact that i was a jw for so long linger over my life and become overcome with "what if's?
yesterday we got a phone call from my mother in law who is a jw.
she was distraught because she still has my husband (her son) who is no longer a jw as her medical and legal poa.
They told her she has to have a JW as her POA, not her son who is no longer a JW. It disgusts me that they think she should just relinquish her rights to some moron in the hall she doesn't know well rather than keep it with her family who she still loves.
Is that even legal? Wouldn't that be considered coercion?
let's get a head count and give me some ideas.. changeling.
Mr. Flipper, are you with me on this? Changling, pleas have nvr take her away...
let's get a head count and give me some ideas.. changeling.
Well Mr. Flipper would have saved his wife for last. That would have appeared the least suspicious. I was saved to the end, of course, becaue of my witty repartee. This thread wouldn't be the same without me - without me and my panties. Plus, I didn't need to kill anyone to get panties. The women have been dropping them left and right without any assistance on my part. And besides, if I were after panties, the women would have been the first to go. No, so me as the killer doesn't hold up and Flipper as the killer doesn't hold up which only leaves YOU!
let's get a head count and give me some ideas.. changeling.
WOW! It is BB. Didn't I already guess her? I must not have. Everyone. BB's the murderer.
