My history: I grew up as one of JW's. Parents are still. Both brothers have been df'd. I still hanging in there, if u can call it that. I can't bring myself to end it. I've done many things wrong and in secret - NO ONE KNOWS! I feel as though I've lived a lie my whole life. I'm forty now and still act like a child! Hiding my real self. If I were to confess my sins I'm sure that would be it for me! Every day I think about my imminent condemnation and eternal death. I have to drink heavily just to relieve my tortured soul. If you were to meet me you would think I was the life of the party and no cares in the world but behind it all is a very damaged little girl seeking unconditional love thats nowhere to be found. Do you know what I mean?
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my very personal history!
by weary inmy history: i grew up as one of jw's.
parents are still.
both brothers have been df'd.
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I think I'm going crazy
by weary inthis is the first time i've been here.
i feel very guilty.
my whole life i've felt guilty.
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This is the first time I've been here. I feel very guilty. My whole life I've felt guilty. Never living up to others expectations, I think I'm going crazy. I hate my life as it is now. I seem to always do everything wrong. Right now I'm in la-la land as far as being "in the truth". I'm far from it!
Am I the only one going through such torment? I'm a fake!!!!!!!! I need help!