hello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
Hope you have a happy life living a lie.
Well i think to a certain lots of people live some kind of lie. Some people stay married for the kids. Stay at a job they hate because of the benefits. So i think im just gonna "make the truth my own" For lack of a better term. Like they say if it doesnt work i can fade.
hello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
A year after leaving the JW i started attending an AOG church
What is this? Never heard of this church.
hello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
I am going back for family and friends. Also, i spoke with another friend who was df'd. he said he just listens to 90% of it but the rest he just doesnt pay attention to. I think i can do the same thing. Anotrher friend said to me, who used to be a circuit overseer and started congregations in South America, "Do I know if its the truth, no i dont. But I do want to live my life according to bible principles and this is the umbrella under which i choose to worship god." I think i feel the same way. I will do some service, will be part of the school. May even do MS. Will never be an elder.
hello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
how do i take clips for others posts and paste them to my reply...i must be doing something wrong. yes i am going back for family and friends. But i am also going to try to give it one more chance. I wanna go gung ho and see if i can get my belief system back.
hello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
I just hope i can keep this up
hello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
Hello true believers
Had JC meeting. Will be reinstated next meeting. I thought I would be excited....not sure how I feel. People will probobly treat me like dog shi* anyway. Im hoping more field service and stuff will help the depression. Perhaps trying to do more field service is the cause of depression. :(
its a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
I remember 9-11. I wanted to commit suicide because i thought it was the end. I was just coming back at the time and didnt talk to elders yet. I actually tried to get a gun. I was never doing enough. Im starting to see where my anxiety and paranoia come from.
its a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
yeah basically in a relationship without marraige. i kept promising myself i would stop the sex and couldnt do it. i tried everything. thought something was wrong with me.
before i got df'd for you know what i told the brothers i was having doubts....think theylll keep me out longer?.
Funny thing,
A close friend of mine got df same time I did. The brother on his committee who was the most judgemental two weeks later was deleted as an elder. Has never been back to the meeting since. I guess he likes to rattle cages but cant handle his cage getting rattled. Seems he left his wife for a man. I think im at a point where ive lost faith in all people, because i lost faith with myself. its amazing how had i just read another bible i would have known about gods grace, as opposed to his "undeserved kindness"
i think it's an atempt to catch faders or atleast make active dubs feel special.
it also could be a cost cutting measure to though.
getting rid of the km's and even up awakes and watchtowers would save some trees.
in that case hoqw could a df person study for the watchtower
