I am going back for family and friends. Also, i spoke with another friend who was df'd. he said he just listens to 90% of it but the rest he just doesnt pay attention to. I think i can do the same thing. Anotrher friend said to me, who used to be a circuit overseer and started congregations in South America, "Do I know if its the truth, no i dont. But I do want to live my life according to bible principles and this is the umbrella under which i choose to worship god." I think i feel the same way. I will do some service, will be part of the school. May even do MS. Will never be an elder.
Posts by Caine
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76Am going to be reinstated
by Caine inhello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
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Am going to be reinstated
by Caine inhello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
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Caine
how do i take clips for others posts and paste them to my reply...i must be doing something wrong. yes i am going back for family and friends. But i am also going to try to give it one more chance. I wanna go gung ho and see if i can get my belief system back.
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Am going to be reinstated
by Caine inhello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
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Caine
I just hope i can keep this up
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Am going to be reinstated
by Caine inhello true believers.
had jc meeting.
will be reinstated next meeting.
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Caine
Hello true believers
Had JC meeting. Will be reinstated next meeting. I thought I would be excited....not sure how I feel. People will probobly treat me like dog shi* anyway. Im hoping more field service and stuff will help the depression. Perhaps trying to do more field service is the cause of depression. :(
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anyone else out there land on a psych ward after being df'd???
by Messy inits a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
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I remember 9-11. I wanted to commit suicide because i thought it was the end. I was just coming back at the time and didnt talk to elders yet. I actually tried to get a gun. I was never doing enough. Im starting to see where my anxiety and paranoia come from.
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anyone else out there land on a psych ward after being df'd???
by Messy inits a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
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Caine
yeah basically in a relationship without marraige. i kept promising myself i would stop the sex and couldnt do it. i tried everything. thought something was wrong with me.
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df'd and having doubts..JC knows
by Caine inbefore i got df'd for you know what i told the brothers i was having doubts....think theylll keep me out longer?.
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Caine
Funny thing,
A close friend of mine got df same time I did. The brother on his committee who was the most judgemental two weeks later was deleted as an elder. Has never been back to the meeting since. I guess he likes to rattle cages but cant handle his cage getting rattled. Seems he left his wife for a man. I think im at a point where ive lost faith in all people, because i lost faith with myself. its amazing how had i just read another bible i would have known about gods grace, as opposed to his "undeserved kindness"
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What do you think is behind the watchtower change in 2008 ?
by 5go ini think it's an atempt to catch faders or atleast make active dubs feel special.
it also could be a cost cutting measure to though.
getting rid of the km's and even up awakes and watchtowers would save some trees.
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Caine
in that case hoqw could a df person study for the watchtower
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What do you think is behind the watchtower change in 2008 ?
by 5go ini think it's an atempt to catch faders or atleast make active dubs feel special.
it also could be a cost cutting measure to though.
getting rid of the km's and even up awakes and watchtowers would save some trees.
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Caine
obvious...oops
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What do you think is behind the watchtower change in 2008 ?
by 5go ini think it's an atempt to catch faders or atleast make active dubs feel special.
it also could be a cost cutting measure to though.
getting rid of the km's and even up awakes and watchtowers would save some trees.
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Caine
It is abvious that there is a serious cashflow problem. Bethel lsyoffs, paper books, awake coming out once a month. Furthermore witnesses are told not to pursue any money making career. Most dont have much money to begin with and with gas prices and everything going up they cannot donate any money. No one asks for donations at the door, and few donate when getting literature. So the corporation has to trim the fat. Were seeing the last 20 years of this religion