deputy dog, today I honestly can say that I do not know, maybe to help others to see the truth about the truth (but that is a strong feeling due to what is going on inside me after finding out I allowed myself to be deceived for a good portion of my life), then to enjoy the time with my children, for my work. In general I am trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Whatever I think and believe now, may be proven wrong in the future. The only certainty I have is that there are no certainties (which is in itself a contradiction ;-) ), therefore I doubt that there is any belief that is worth giving up one's life for.