I don't know your story as I am relatively new here but I found your post very interesting.
I myself has struggled with my thoughlife for as long as I can remember. I don't consider myself bi-sexual. I am human. But as a Christian I have been torn inside because of these thoughts. I'm not sure when it all started but at a very young age I was very sexually curious and knew about (and participated) in things that I have absolutely no idea how I knew about them. My sister and I have never sat down and gone into detail (it would take a few drinks) but we both suspect sexual abuse based on behaviors as children. Quite honestly, as an adult I have some real hangups.
Anyway, I was speaking with my husband in the car the other day about transexuals. Oh man, you don't even want to know where he went with this one. But, he did make one very interesting comment to me. He said, "We are all human. We all struggle with our thoughts and desires. I don't care how macho a man is, they can't tell me they haven't thought about sex with another man. The same goes for women. We are all the same and we all struggle inside. It doesn't mean we are going to act on it."
Boy, did I ever have fun with that. He didn't want to personalize it for himself but I have to admit, that was the most freeing comment I had heard come out of his mouth.
By the way, many women get "crushes" on other women but it isn't necessarily in a sexual way. I know I have over the years and I certainly didn't want to sleep with any of my friends.
Mr Junction - you may NOT be gay. You may just be in touch with your feminine side (just kidding) . I encourage you to get counselling and sort things out. I would also suggest surrounding yourself with solid Christian teachers who are going to lift you up and come along side you as a brother. Run from those who are going to tear your up to shreds as a person. Jesus would not have done that.
