i'm not suicidal just fed up.. i did think of suicide (briefly), but as there is no painless way and it's not something i would willingly do just in case things would have been better the day after.
i do have a slight grain of hope.. money problems.....problems at home (that's another matter with a son up court for something he is adamant he didn't do.
first offence but the pigs police and the cps have got charges made.
I'm sorry you feel so sad, life sucks sometimes. I don't have any advice to offer, just sympathy. I've been in that dark place in my lifetime, don't want to ever go there again. I hope you can get out of the way of the train in the tunnel and have some fun out of life yet. Don't give up!
Best wishes
Hortensia
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got a cool job, surgery and emergency medicine in a nice holiday town, super happy :d. .
Wonderful!
my girlfriend cult handlers have gotten to her.
they suggested she should no longer communicate with someone who's thinking isn't in line with jehovah's organization.
we argued and she told me to go hang myself.
Moving is a good idea -- new places, new friends, new sights. Make a plan, check out some places, think about where you might get a job, and then GO!
something happened this week to make me think about this again.. it feels like all bets are off and i really don't know what a good person is anymore.. when i left the jws i was so sure i knew what it meant to be a good person.. this has been revised many times since.. i tend to favour the utilitarian approach, the greatest happiness for the greatest number of people.. sometimes you have to stick your neck out and say this is not good for me no matter what others may feel they need from me.. no idea where i'm going with this maybe this is a breakthrough in my life or maybe that glass of wine was stronger than i thought!.
any thoughts?.
I think I'm a fairly good person, and I imagine the rest of you are too.
i would just like to get this off my chest.. during the public talk last sunday the speaker (bro holden m'groin) said in public talk: .
" if you ask any 16yr old girl what she wants out of life, she would probably say a home, a family etc etc" (because obviously this is still 1955).. anyway that got my attention i thought " hmm....where is he going with this?"..
bro holden m'groin goes on .
I hear you! I think I'd rather stab myself in the eyes than listen to one of those talks again.
god is disappointed in you.
great title, eh?
has anyone read it?.
Great title, eh? Has anyone read it?
...when i told them i didn't believe anymore.
they cried like i'd never seen before.
my oldest, 10, pleaded with me that she'd do anything to get me to keep going to meetings ("i'll get a's on my report card!").
I know your kids feel badly now, but as everyone said in time they will be glad you took this step. They'll see you living your life and being happy and feeling secure, unafraid. It will be beneficial for them in the long run. I know it's hurting you, too, at the moment, because you don't like to see your kids worry about you. If you're unafraid, they'll see that.
ancient shrimp-like animals had 'modern' hearts and blood vesselsthis image shows a schematic reconstruction of the animal, outlining the cardiovascular system in red, the brain and central nervous system in blue and the gut in green.an international team of researchers from the university of arizona, china and the united kingdom has discovered the earliest known cardiovascular system, and the first to clearly show a sophisticated system complete with heart and blood vessels, in fossilized remains of an extinct marine creature that lived over half a billion years ago.
the finding sheds new light on the evolution of body organization in the animal kingdom and shows that even the earliest creatures had internal organizational systems that strongly resemble those found in their modern descendants.. "this is the first preserved vascular system that we know of," said nicholas strausfeld, a regents' professor of neuroscience at the university of arizona's department of neuroscience, who helped analyze the find.. being one of the world's foremost experts in arthropod morphology and neuroanatomy, strausfeld is no stranger to finding meaningful and unexpected answers to long-standing mysteries in the remains of creatures that went extinct so long ago scientists still argue over where to place them in the evolutionary tree.. the 3-inch-long fossil was entombed in fine dustlike particles -- now preserved as fine-grain mudstone -- during the cambrian period 520 million years ago in what today is the yunnan province in china.
found by co-author peiyun cong near kunming, it belongs to the speciesfuxianhuia protensa, an extinct lineage of arthropods combining advanced internal anatomy with a primitive body plan.. "fuxianhuia is relatively abundant, but only extremely few specimens provide evidence of even a small part of an organ system, not even to speak of an entire organ system," said strausfeld, who directs the ua center for insect science.
marked to read later
Thanks for sharing!
i have some ideas, but want more to choose from..
"No, thanks." If they persist, "piss off."
http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2014/02/140212093300.htm.
elevated brain aluminium, early onset alzheimer's disease in an individual occupationally exposed to aluminiumdate:february 12, 2014 source:keele university summary:research has shown for the first time that an individual who was exposed to aluminum at work and died of alzheimers disease had high levels of aluminum in the brain.
while aluminum is a known neurotoxin and occupational exposure to aluminum has been implicated in neurological disease, including alzheimers disease, this finding is believed to be the first record of a direct link between alzheimers disease and elevated brain aluminum following occupational exposure to the metal.
"The observation that air-borne aluminum dust was most likely responsible for the elevated levels of aluminum in the brain must then heavily implicate the nose and possibly the lungs as the main routes of entry of aluminum into the body and the brain.
"Overall, these results suggest very strongly that occupational exposure to aluminum contributed significantly to the untimely death of this individual with Alzheimer's disease."
You cannot extend this report to mean that any contact with aluminum can cause Alzheimer's disease. You have to read these things carefully. This man was exposed to air-borne aluminum dust daily for eight years. That is NOT the same as aluminum in cookware, deoderants, canned goods and all the other items that were listed.
Aluminum dust probably entered this man's nose/lungs and progressed to the brain. However, this is one case only, and there isn't enough proof of anything to draw any sort of conclusion.
