Posts by LynnTink

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I was robbed because I don't serve Jehovah...Yeah Right!

by LynnTink in

once again i am shocked.

you would think i would be usted to it by now.

wait til you hear this one.

LynnTink

Once again I am shocked. You would think I would be usted to it by now. Wait til you hear this one.

Last week on Christmas Day someone broke into to my house and stole everything we owned except our clothes and furniture. I mean everything computers, game systems, stereos, jewelry, guitars etc etc. I waited and called my parents until they were back in town. Well, I told my dad and he was just in shock. Then about an hour later my mom calls the first thing out of her mouth is if you would not let worldly people around your kids this would not have happened. Not one word of concern for us at all. I tried reasoning with her that my friends were loyal and came right over when I told them what happened. She still went on and on. I finally interupted her and said "I love you too". Her reply was "I doubt it". Then I lost it I told her "Someone has just stolen everything I own thousands of dollars worth and my biggest concern is that they got your engagement because it is yours and it means so much to me and I can never replace it." She still did not get it. So, "I told her you do not have clue and talking to you is upsetting me I have to go" and I hung up. I called my dad later and he had no ideal what had happened she was in the background still going off. I told him to tell her it is because of judgemental people like her is the reason I will never step foot in another Kingdom Hall. Of course she played the victim part real well and saying there is something wrong with my thinking. The police already a few subspect and of course they are not any of my friends. A few places got hit including some major stores in town.

I will admit I have felt a little guilty because this is the first time I have ever celebrated Christmas, tree and all. But I do not want anything to do with being a JW. My friends said they can see going down hill fast and I can not afford to do that because of my boys. This has set me back seeing my kids hurt once again, spiritually, mentally exhausted and of course financially.

I need some positive support.

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They make you think there are no good people out there.

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what a wonderful response i have received from my last (which was my first post) post from everyone here.

the one thing that was drilled into my head was that you can not trust anyone that is not a jw.

i had only one worldly friend since high school and she has been there for me thru everything.

LynnTink

What a wonderful response I have received from my last (which was my first post) post from everyone here.

The one thing that was drilled into my head was that you can not trust anyone that is not a JW. I had only one worldly friend since high school and she has been there for me thru everything. She even wrote a letter to the society about disfellowing and how wrong it is. Believe me it was a powerful letter. I am quickly making new friends and I am getting in touch with some old ex-JW's. At least the ones that are over what they have done and realize that they are only human and want more out of life then being a JW. Of course there are people out there that are not trust worthly but most are trying to do their best.

The main reason for this post is to say "THANK YOU!" All the responses I got on my first post are wonderful. There may need to be people that need that much control in their life to stay focused and not get in trouble but for the most of us, we do just fine without it. Your responses have given me the needed strength I need to move on and stay strong. I look forward to getting to now more people on here and to post more things as time allows.

THANKS A MILLION TIMES OVER!!!

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Lost and looking for answers

by LynnTink in

this is my story.

i was born a jw and never knew anything else because my parents shelter from everything but for other reason.

from the time i can remember my dad beat my mom.

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This is my story. I was born a JW and never knew anything else because my parents shelter from everything but for other reason. From the time I can remember my dad beat my mom. My first recall was when I was 5 and he was choking my mom by the throat, she called me into the room because he would stop when I came into the room. He did not want to look ba in front of his little girl. My mom stayed because she did not have grounds for divorce. Well, I started to grow up and my dad turned to me sexually at age 11, it continued for a while. I know now that it stopped because I became very ill and the doctors did not know what was wrong with me. I now know that it was from repressing what was happening. He stpped but then started hitting my brother and me. I would stand toe to toe with him, which made my mom think I was a devil child. (I had not told her what had happened at that point) At 17 I wanted to get batized and I wanted a clean conscience so I told my mom what he had done to me at 11. He denied it at first but then he confessed that I was telling the truth. They did not tell the elders and she stayed with him still.

I got baptized, poineered, met a brother got married had kids. We had a good marriage, he was an elder, we had bible studies, the book study at our home, the boys were unbaptized pulbishers etc etc. Well there was an article on incest and my husband told the elders what happened to me. The elders met with my dad and never talked to me at all. Well, a few years later my best friend (an elders wife too) decided she wanted my husband and they had an affair. They got caught together 3 times and the elders did nothing because he was an elder and her husband was too (but more importantly her husband was best friends with the PO). The elders finally had to meet with them and they decided to private reprove them because it would be better for the congregation and the families. Her husband forgave her the same day he found out about the affair. I could not forgive my husband. My husband and I did divorce after all the nightmare that followed. I eventually met a worldly man and was DF for 8 months. While I was out my husband told all kinds of stories about me that were not true to hind what he had done. When I got reinstated he went nuts because my friends were there for me finally. (I was 35 at the time). Two months after I was reinstated my ex husband killed himself. I found out later he was sleeping with a sister and did not want to get in trouble.

So that is my story. My problem is I think I have lost faith in everything, but I have two wonderful boys I have to be strong for and help make the right decisions for. I no longer agee with alot of the thing JW do anymore. My life would have been so much better without this religion in my life, but my family and friends are mostly JWs. A few years have past and I have been inactive for over a year now. I love God and all his beautiful creations around us. I need some kind of beleif system or faith in something. I don't want to be controlled and told what to do anymore. Please help me I feel I am starting over at 40.