Wow. I so relate to becca1. I have been inactive for a year now. I've been doing some research online, too. Basically I quit going to meetings and in the preaching work because of a couple things. Learning about things like the NGO deal and other historical facts of the Society was one thing. Another was a couple elders leading very poor examples (I won't elaborate right now). But the effect of all this was that I felt that I could no longer go out in the ministry and try to bring people into my congregation. I work nights, so I have a good enough excuse to miss the meetings because they conflict with my work schedule. Plus, 2 other elders basically know my grievances against the above-mentioned elders and are giving me some "space" to think about things. I don't know how long this will last, but so far I've been left alone. Anyway...this concept of "fading" is so cool. I was seriously considering disassociating, but I can seriously just keep doing what I'm doing (not attend, be inactive) and I don't have to disassociate? Won't I eventually be "disassociated" by the elders if I continue to not go to meetings or service? I really have no clue here. I've only been in the truth for about 6 years now. My wife knows how I feel, but she wants to keep on being a witness yet will keep my secret. I don't understand how her conscience allows this, but oh well...I won't complain. Anyway, I'd love to hear more about this "fading" concept. Meanwhile, I'll do more research. This forum is an eye-opener. Peace