Howdy, Mr. M.,
Thanks for the introduction and welcome to the forum. I have to say this is the best forum out there for people like us. One of the best things you can do for yourself is to vent and work through your problem. Keeping it all inside with no outlet is certainly not healthy. I am so happy now having gone through the process of leaving the organization and reintegrating with the rest of the world once again. Sounds weird to say it that way, but that's what it is...reintegration from the Society's cocoon into the world into which you were born.
Good luck and keep posting and interacting!
Erandir