good idea. welfare check. got it. wish i would have done that for my brother before he died. oh, and i sent the letter i wrote to the national post. i doubt it will get published but you never know.
messy jessy
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18Daddy wont answer the phone when i call him anymore :(
by Messy ini called my dad the other day crying and left a message saying daddy i need u pick up i need you and right in the middle, click my step mom (i m guessing) hung up on me.
i also emailed him pretending to be my husband several times and he always answered before, im so scared for him .
hes bi polar like my brother who died two years ago from suicide.
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Daddy wont answer the phone when i call him anymore :(
by Messy ini called my dad the other day crying and left a message saying daddy i need u pick up i need you and right in the middle, click my step mom (i m guessing) hung up on me.
i also emailed him pretending to be my husband several times and he always answered before, im so scared for him .
hes bi polar like my brother who died two years ago from suicide.
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i decided to go public. thanks for all your suggestions, especially truthsearcher. i used your 'biblical mandate' in my letter. im sending it to everyone. as soon as i can i will post the letter here. thanks again friends. maybe you'll see me on the news one day!
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Daddy wont answer the phone when i call him anymore :(
by Messy ini called my dad the other day crying and left a message saying daddy i need u pick up i need you and right in the middle, click my step mom (i m guessing) hung up on me.
i also emailed him pretending to be my husband several times and he always answered before, im so scared for him .
hes bi polar like my brother who died two years ago from suicide.
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hi there
i called my dad the other day crying and left a message saying DADDY i need u pick up i need you and right in the middle, CLICK my step mom (i m guessing) hung up on me. i also emailed him pretending to be my husband several times and he always answered before, im so scared for him . hes bi polar like my brother who died two years ago from suicide. im scared hes in the psych hospital with no one visiting... last time he was in the psych ward i was his only visitor.. then i was dfd and daddys little girl made the elders promiss to look after him since they took that privalege away from me. i found out a couple weeks ago he has nt been to a meeting or left his house in 2 years and NO ONE FROM THE CONGREGATION has come to see him. i need to find a way to get ahold of him, can anyone help me? ideas?????
sad little (25 year old) girl.
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How Do You Think Jehovah's Witnesses Actually "Get" People?
by minimus inwhy do they succeed in getting people baptized?
what do you think??
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i got baptized after my boyfriend did because the elders said we'd have to break up unless i got baptized too since we were 'unevenly yoked' ....alot of good that did me....he dumped me a couple months later when his cousin played him a talk on tape about young men becoming ministerial servants before dating. this is when i started to fall away. unfortunatley i had already taken the plunge. the org can actually make you regret dedicating your life to god. (at least you thought it was baptizm for god...not the org...) THAT my friend is POWER! anyone out there ever hear of someone in power who wasnt somehow evil??? (dont answer that)
messy
jessy
p.s. me and my ex jw friend are going to re-baptize each other this summer at camp!
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anyone else out there land on a psych ward after being df'd???
by Messy inits a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
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OH YA AND! my sister is brilliant and beautiful and she wanted to go to university.. she won awards for public speaking (which my dad said was thanks to the theocrappy misery school (too much?;) she could have become something great! and do you know what she decided to do? first it was, no university will take too long, and the end is nigh....ill go to college....then it was.....well, my 300 year old boyfriend s parents DO own a business.....you guess it! JANITORIAL!!!!! now she runs the business for him . he has a grade 7 education, although very smart, because his parents didnt want him in school with other kids and were supposed to home school him..but he just went door to door with mom everyday and worked in the business at night. my guess is grade 7 was when the marijuana problems started>??anyways. the point is this beautiful girl married the same guy she was crushing on at 11 years old. shes only turning 19 and is married to an older guy who plays video games and drinks and watched movies on his wall length flat screen and connects with 11 year olds!!! if shes anything like me shes going to get BORED!!! if i had married the jw guy i was in love with when i was 15 i would be miserable today. mainly because all he was was a hot italian brother who liked my 'eyes' (....lower.....) listened to punk rock, liked to make out ....and his interests recently i read online were 'chicks cars and bass guitars' or something similarly lame ass. thank JEHOVAH AND OR JESUS i didnt marry him right after highschool WHAT THE ^%@#$ was i THINKING!!!!????!!!! hes a whole nother chapter! (WOW ITS SO HARD TO STOP TYPING!!!! I HOPE NOBODYS GETTING BORED)
jessy
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anyone else out there land on a psych ward after being df'd???
by Messy inits a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
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Hi again...this venting is so good for me...i love it...my husband's pretty psyched too and hes not a jw!
pretty much every jw teenager i know including myself was on anti-depressants at some point, abused alcohol, and were 'cutters' ( people who self-mutilate). i did it regularly for 2 years with my 'best'' friend at the time. its funny, no one ever, not mom dad or anyone ever thought the elders needed to know about us doing it, probably because it wasn't in awake yet or they were afraid of getting in trouble for not taking better care of us and was ashamed. i think alcohol abuse is pretty rampant. it might just be the kids in my hall, and the other halls in my hometown, and alll of my dads 'good associates' and my step mom who drinks right along side my dad while telling him hes an alcoholic. my little sister started at the drink pretty young, but then again she also started secretly dating my best friend online for 7 years behind our backs when she was 11 and he was 19.(okay so maybe ALOT of jws have drinking problems)...but now wait a minute...... how come he wasnt dfd??? he was reproved before for marijuana and other drugs along with 6 other boys before they found out he diddled my little baby sister! (well i dont know for sure but thats what you do when intercourse is forbidden, am i right?).!!!! well theyre married now, and the place where i used to get drunk is now my sisters messy drunken house. theyve been married for a year since jan 1st and she wont be 19 until may while hes turning 27 the same month. sorry. someone got me started...
MORE TO COME!!!!!!!!!
sister messy jessy
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My Latest JW Blog
by Abandoned ini have written another blog about the damage i've suffered from being a jw.
it's located at http://blog.myspace.com/improg.. here is the content if you don't feel like going to myspace.. i didn't realize until this year, how much baggage i'm still carrying around from my many years associated with the jehovah's witnesses.. from my experience, i believe that organization is both a cult and destructive.
there are a lot of reasons why i say this, but one of the primary ones is related to the view they paint of god.
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"more resembles the teachings of the Pharisees than those of Jesus "
when studying the greatest man book, i found the pharisees really interesting. i started to see connections between them and the society. this woke me up and i started to pay closer attention to the goings-on. this was several years ago the first time it was studied. by the time i was almost gone out, i told my dad that i felt the extra rules and 'technicalities' the elders were giving as reasons i was going to be df'd reminded me of pharisees and my dad told me to watch what i said at the next judicial hearing.
it seemed the more honest i was with the elders, the worse it got. i was df'd for fornication, 'technically' .
but i know in my heart, as obvious as it was that i was df'd because they knew i was never coming back to meetings. they asked me if my husband told me to stop going to meetings, would i listen to him or jehovah. i said "he would never ask that of me" they said: "ok but would you listen to him over jehovah hypothetically if he did ask you to stop going" they kept insisting i answer that question, and i kept asking the relevance. it was no use. the minute i told them that i was sorry about the fornication and that we were getting married next week they said yes that shows repentance BUT your attitude for the last 3 years (avoiding the elders who were stalking me incessantly although i stopped attending 3 years earlier)shows you dont follow jehovah's earthly organization's ways. so i asked am i being dfd for fornication or what? they wouldnt answer. but i know all my friends and family in the jw church think i was df'd cause im a 'wearer of scarlet and purple' .ps. i only slept with the man i married and yet i am considered the equivalent of a prostitute in the eyes of my former best friends.
messy jessy
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anyone else out there land on a psych ward after being df'd???
by Messy inits a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
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thanks so much for all the comments! i cant believe loving support was just a click away! my hubby was never jw involved and doesnt always understand what im going through but he tries! its so comforting to know i now have somewhere to turn for answers! I feel filled with holy spirit and exhuberance that i was always 'supposed' to feel before but never did. the last 3-5 years have been a struggle. the 2 month stint at the hospital was basically like defragging my hard drive. i was 7-8 days without sleep, i had a urinary tract infection from kidney surgery 3 days before. i also was moving 6.5 hrs away from my hometown the day i had what my psych diagnosed as an 'acute psychotic episode'. so basically, i slept it off for 2 months with some heavy antibiotics adn psych meds. I count myself lucky that my diagnosis was 'acute' and not long-term or permanent. unfortunately, my older and gay brother was diagnosed bi-polar after a trip the the psych centre in toronto, a year after my dad spent 4 months on ground floor psychiatry in our hometown with the same diagnosis. my brother passed away 3 months later, he left us 50+ journals of his thoughts in writing and art. unfortunately although he left the jws when he was 15, he never got over it. growing up jw alone is bad enough. try being gay and a "jehomo" as he was called in school. he had no support in the congregation, no friends (me neither only the sons and daughters of elders were popular) and wasnt allowed to associate with anyone else. if you read my profile you will be given a quick breakdown of the timeline leading up to my disfellowshiping. the biggest reason i want to write is to get my bro's story out there to help gay AND straight jws...maybe even pull the rest of my fam out of the abyss.
love your sister always,
messy jessy
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looking for any ex-jws or on the way out jws from sudbury on
by Messy inare there any sudburians on this forum who remember me?
i would like to know how my family is doing if youre still attending....and would love to get in touch with old friends, 'bro's and sis's".. .
messy jessy.
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are there any sudburians on this forum who remember me? i would like to know how my family is doing if youre still attending....and would love to get in touch with old friends, 'bro's and sis's".
Messy Jessy
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anyone else out there land on a psych ward after being df'd???
by Messy inits a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the cornwall on.
psych floor for two months.
i was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings.
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Its a long story that starts with panic attacks going door to door and ended with a 2 month vacation in the Cornwall On. psych floor for two months. I was stalked by the elders for 3 years after i stopped going to meetings. they followed me, came to my home, my boyfriends home, his parents house, my place of work where i am a nurse on an alzheimers unit. they scared my residents, coming in at 11:30 at night in long black coats and brief cases..not to mention me who got 'reproved' at work for calling in sick too much when i was having panic attacks at work every time the elevator door opened. i stoped going out in public after i was df'd i just couldnt face any jws in the grocery store with their cold glances..people who used to hug me every time we met up..also, does every ex jw feel this intense need to write a book about their experiences or is that just me? anyone out there want to hear more about my experiences? Because i could go on and on..