KCM wrote: "HiI don't think I am an apostate, but do feel like one for being on these boards as we were always warned not to at the meetings etc.I disagree with so many things they teach, the main thing is the blood issue....being a new auntie, I love my niece soooo much and if I were the only person that could save her, how on earth could I not? I'd be blood guilty for not saving her!!!!! That in my books, would be murder.However, may be it's because i've only been away from the mtgs for a year, but I still think of it most days and although I feel I've made the right decision as nothing was making me happy in it, and obvioulsy my ex beating me and getting away with it.....I still feel a certain pull towards it and a kind of insane loyalty???
Anyone else feel like that? Or am I just a weirdo?
Mad writes: You certainly are no weirdo- those are natural feelings. Sounds like you were in a congregation similar to some as described in Revelation! Remember, tho- the Original Christians let themselves- AND their family with them -be torn apart by wild animals, rather than sprinkle incense to the Roman Emporer...If your "Ex" beat you- he was not a Christain in ANY sense of the word. Just don't give up praying to our Maker! You know the illustration about Opinions- many on this board are just out to insult any whom TRY to be real Christians. If you sat in a typical church and donated your money, noone would bother you!
Remember Paul's words- "Keep your eyes on the things ABOVE...NOT the things below!", KCM! Agape, the Mad Brother