Yizuman,
I will comment on this topic with great pleasure. Superb questions. The whole judicial process is one thing that began to convince me that the org. is a sham. From the first J.C. I served on I always sought to preserve the dignity of the individual. This often put me at odds with the other members. Till the very end of my service as an elder I tried, albeit in a quiet way, to look out for the accused. I understood that,even playing by the org's own rules, dfing should almost never take place. I based this on the example of David. David was,by all accounts, a very, very, very bad man. Yet he was shown mercy. I often reminded the other J.C. members of this fact. Ultimately I realized I could no longer sit as judge of anyone. My resignation as an elder soon followed. As for apologizing to some for my role in J.C.s yes I've done so in a couple of cases. For some cases it would be impractical if not impossible to do so.
I'm in the process of helping several Witnesses to wake up. I'm sure I'll help more to leave than I ever converted. I'm planning to write a book as well.
P.S.- Please allow one point for your cosideration Yizuman. As Ray Franz reminds us in CoC, elders, GB members, etc. are victims of victims. Yes some are haughty, arrogant, (a bunch of other descriptive words I don't want to use because I don't want to get kicked off of here) human beings. But for the most part they're just doing what they've been taught (programmed) to do, at least by example. We must not hate. Rather let's spend our energies on helping as many as possible to wake up and being there for each other. I shed many tears as an elder. I know I wasn't the only one. Give them time. Many,many more will awaken to reality. Let's be there for them so their path isn't so difficult.
Much love and respect,
Nvrgnbk