Posts by dazednotconfused

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I was not prepared for the other side

by dazednotconfused in

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friends:.

long time lurker, very occasional poster.

i have done the fade thing for 4 years now, and have not attended a meeting in over 2 years.

dazednotconfused

Friends:

Long time lurker, very occasional poster. I have done the fade thing for 4 years now, and have not attended a meeting in over 2 years. I had a group of nice friends in "
the truth" all of whom have since forgotten that I exist. My parents are in their 80's and zealous as the day is long. My brother in-law is an elder...You get the idea - I am surrounded with nowhere to escape their "loving wrath". My dear mom is now in a desperate race to save me before the wonderful day arrives (is it tomorrow really?).

Bottom line - I was not prepared for life on the other side. I feel like I live in another dimension, like there is a vacuum of space between me and everyone else. I know I am depressed, riddled with guilt and anger. Why can't I just be accepted for who I am? Why can I not disagree with some of the teachings without reprisal?

I reach out to those ones who are fading, reminding them that if you are not prepared, life on the other side of the ORG is a lonely place. I used to be an outgoing, happy person. Now I am a hiding soul, locked up, without answers. I have thought of returning, and "faking" it, doing the bare minimum.... I cannot - the last time I was at the hall it gave me a stomach ache, I was done, walked out at the halfway song, and have never gone back.

I know I need to find a pair of bollocks and get on with a new life, but its tough. I am psychologically scarred. This healing will take time. Family is a lost cause, I am the black sheep. God I wish they would stop shoving the tower and awake in my face - been there, done that.

Thanks for listening. Putting this in writing is somewhat therapeutic. Where do I go from here? I'm not sure.

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Are you still in the Will?

by Outaservice in

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i'm curious.

has anyone been taken out of their parents and/or relatives 'will' because of leaving the jw's?

outaservice

dazednotconfused

What do they need WILL's for? The end is coming tomorrow and HE doesn't accept cash.

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Has anyone heard about the content of the Elders meeting in Patterson?

by Hiddenwindow in

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dazednotconfused

they will be told "THE END IS IMMINENT" gather thine flock of faithful ones, and make sure you have your survival kits ready.

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They Keep You In By Using Guilt!

by minimus in

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do you realize that the organization keeps you captive through the manipulation of guilt?

they make you feel guilty because you didn't auxillary pioneer when you knew you could've.. they make you feel bad about yourself for masturbating although they know everyone does it.. they try to make you feel bad because you didn't contribute as much money as you could because you went on vacation....and so forth.. isn't it great to not feel guilt anymore over these things???

?.

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Hey Velvetann: can have your phone number?

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Jehovah will annihilate those governments - even if they protect us?

by Bonnie_Clyde in

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this is not new - but it still strikes me as ironic.

the 12-15-07 wt on page 20 states mentions that, "it may be times be necessary to defend with boldness our scriptural position...by appealing to governments and courts for protection.

" then 7 paragraphs later it states that jehovah will annihilate all the nations because they are opposed to the messianic kingdom.

dazednotconfused

why go to the doctor if you are sick? Your doctor is a wicked non-believer. Thank him if he cures your ailment and watch him die at Armageddon.

A favour to ask please

by dazednotconfused in

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its a long story but i need to "pretend" that i went to the recent 2 day assembly.....could someone please give me a super quick rundown of it:.

what was the theme?

etc..... thank you so much in advance, i will explain later.. .

dazednotconfused

Its a long story but I need to "pretend" that I went to the recent 2 day assembly.....could someone please give me a super quick rundown of it:

what was the theme? etc....

thank you so much in advance, I will explain later.

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This is what it all comes down to

by dazednotconfused in

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do it (the truth) with your whole heart, soul, mind and body to the absolute extreme of your ability, and there is the slight chance that you won't be crushed like a wicked bug on judgement day.. thanks for attending, see you tuesday at 7:30 and don't be late, the end wont be either..

dazednotconfused

Do it (the truth) with your whole heart, soul, mind and body to the absolute extreme of your ability, and there is the slight chance that you won't be crushed like a wicked bug on judgement day.

thanks for attending, see you Tuesday at 7:30 and don't be late, the end wont be either.

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On my own now

by dazednotconfused in

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hi everyone - i have posted only a couple times here but felt the urge to let loose a little bit today.

i am 41 years old, and after being brainwashed for the last 35 years, i can no longer continue as a jw - i have not been inside a kingdom hall in over a year, my friends and family have shunned me and i have very few associates outside of "the truth".. now i am not here to cry and feel sorry for myself.

but i would like to hear from some who are/were in a similar situation.

dazednotconfused

Hi everyone - I have posted only a couple times here but felt the urge to let loose a little bit today. I am 41 years old, and after being brainwashed for the last 35 years, I can no longer continue as a JW - I have not been inside a Kingdom Hall in over a year, my friends and family have shunned me and I have very few associates outside of "THE TRUTH".

Now I am not here to cry and feel sorry for myself. But I would like to hear from some who are/were in a similar situation. I feel like a child, just starting out in life, wondering what the future brings - all that. What does it bring, how do I get started in "getting a life" outside of "the society"?

Honestly, I used to think those of you on boards like this were just plain crazy and foolish...blinded to the truth, bitter and unrepentantly wicked. Well I have changed, grown and seen the light so to speak.

If there is a God of love up there, hear my plea - I am a good person, destroy me not.

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Hi - I'm new here too

by dazednotconfused in

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30 of my 40 some years on this mortal coil have been spent as a witness.

once i was old enough to realize the meetings were not a place to play and run around i understood the gravity of my situation.

"just love jehovah and do his will" i was told.

dazednotconfused

Yeah - my family still "talks" to me but they are giving up on me and we are drawing farther away from each other. It hurts but I can't fake it anymore.

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Hi - I'm new here too

by dazednotconfused in

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30 of my 40 some years on this mortal coil have been spent as a witness.

once i was old enough to realize the meetings were not a place to play and run around i understood the gravity of my situation.

"just love jehovah and do his will" i was told.

dazednotconfused

Well - here I am. 30 of my 40 some years on this mortal coil have been spent as a Witness. Once I was old enough to realize the meetings were not a place to play and run around I understood the gravity of my situation. "Just love Jehovah and do his will" I was told. Sure, no problemo...

I will never forget elementary school, up to bat at recess, with everbody yelling "Joho, Joho, Joho". This was to be expected of course. I would stand out because I was different. Persecution was good, it showed that I was doing the right thing. After all, Jesus and his followers expect this. So should I.

Leap forward a few decades - divorced from a lovely sister who quit the truth to sow her wild oats - she claims it was because I didn't feel like attending meetings anymore.

So whats my point or reason for posting here? I need a kick start to get a new life. All my "friends" have abondoned me now. The only reason I am not disfellowshipped is because I keep one step ahead of the elders. My immediate family is very upset with me, for I will die at Armageddon which in case you haven't heard is just around the corner - maybe tomorrow in fact.

Help me.