I haven't decided for sure yet. My husband wants to go, but for me I'm having a lot of turmoil inside. He says he wants to go to observe Jesus' death, but I told him for me I don't think that the way they do it is necessarily what Jesus had in mind. Why does Jesus say to keep doing this in rememberance of me, and the disciples ate and drank? Well the WTBTS would of course say that this because they were of the 144,000, and they know this how exactly? Because of their deciding which parts of Revelation to take literally and those which are figurative? How convenient for them to pick and choose those which fit their particular beliefs. I told him to go but that I probably wouldn't. This religion bothers me in the fact that you have to agree with everything 100% to be considered acceptable by Jehovah.<according to them *not* me, lol> It's not a religion where you can be half-hearted in their beliefs and be accepted as truly worthy. I remember looking around at the memorial for many years and seeing folks that you only see once a year, and thinking self righteously to myself how *sad* for them that they only worshipped Jehovah once a year. I am so glad to be able to see clearly for the first time in my LIFE that there are other ways to serve God besides that which is dicatated by the WTBTS as being the only *true* way. As we were discussing things last evening I told my husband that they are really beginning to remind me of the pharisees. Especially in their saying that their beliefs are the only *correct* way to worship God. I think they need to read Matthew 15:9, where Jesus tells the pharisees "It is in vain that they keep worshipping me because they teach commands of men as doctrines"
My husband will probably go, and I may or may not go...but if I do it will probably be my last time. I feel bad for him because he is a born and bred JW as am I, and it's so very hard to think that something you have been told from the time you took your first breath is the *TRUTH* may in fact be seriously flawed. For many in our situation it is easier to just go with the flow and not make waves, to basically not think...why should you have to when the GB is doing all the thinking and decison making for you? But I can't take it anymore. I told him that I can't live a lie...being half in and half out. I'm sorry, I don't mean to whine, it's just that this is SO hard!
Thanks for listening.
A very confused and distressed Eyes
"One Persons Heresy Is Anothers Truth"