JAMES JACK- Congratulations to you and your wife breaking free from the chains of mental abuse by the WT Society and moving on to live your life with freedom of mind ! I'm your same age ( turned 60 in October 2019 ) and I've been out of the JW's over 17 years now. Best decision I ever made, aside from marrying Mrs. Flipper and having my 3 children years ago.
Having been born and raised in the JW cult myself, I understand your feelings of a wasted life, WT telling us we would never die, and to only live for the future " paradise".
I get it. I've discovered that living in the here and now, treasuring each day of life, and pursuing my interests, passions, business, cherishing my wife, my ex-JW son, and friendships each day are what life is about. Not chasing some pie in the sky unreality. Living each day with no regrets, like it's your last day is my mantra now. I'm into producing and playing and writing music, putting it out on the Internet, organic vegetable gardening, hiking in the woods, playing Scrabble with my wife. Enjoying our dogs and cat.
It's these cherished memories in living them every day that help me get through. Perhaps you and your wife can come to South Lake Tahoe next year at our annual apostafest get together . Check out the thread on On The Way Out's topics. We get about 40 to 50 ex-JW's coming to just hang out, BBQ, party, chill and drink adult and non-adult beverages sharing real friendships. Would love to have you come !
Hang in bro, you and your wife will make it. Pursue your dreams ! Peace out, Mr. Flipper