I am planning on stopping pioneering in August
Why not quit pioneering now? It seems like you are too overwhelmed with all that you have going on right now with full-time job, online business, family, and pioneering. If you cut down on things it may give you a chance to think straight and be able to make the best choice for you right now, as far as fading, or disassociating yourself. It just seems you are adding stress upon stress...
Best wishes to you...