Silent
You have been on this board for seven years and you still feel this way ?
I`m sorry something just does not add up .
Maybe you are one of those people who have left the religion , but the religion has never left you .
You are swayed by emotions and feelings and not by facts , you need to exercise your brain to sift through the facts of J.W.teachings since their beginnings , otherwise I think you are mentally lazy , and will drift like a cork on the seas , swaying this way and that according to the waves.
Seriously , I don`t mean to be offensive , but you need to do some serious research.
smiddy