wannaexit ,maybe you can understand where I was comming from. just saying.
floridaborn ,I see you have been lurking on this site for 15 years and joined 3 years ago and now only posted just recently.
I`m not sure what to say , except your a very cautious person .and as wannaexit says "I too am amazed " lurking for 15 years ? and only just posting ?
However ,getting back to your post ,your obviously not a teenager but an adult and want a relationship with the opposite sex .and are scared of losing your family if they find out your dating a worldly person .
You need to identify what will make you happy in this short life that you have on earth. .( reality check)
Do you want to do what pleases your family and makes them happy and you miserable ?
or do you want to do what makes YOU happy for the rest of your short life here on this earth.
I hope you think about this and make the right decision for you
It is your choice and nobody else`s