Hi Minerva ,welcome to this site ,glad to have you on board. I wonder if you fall into the catergory of one who has left the "truth" however the "truth" has never left you .
I`m thinking this may be the case because of hubby still being an active JW and your still being subjected to watchtower dogma through him. And of course influences from other "in" JW relatives.?
Have you really proved to yourself that the JW religion is no more "true" than any other man made religion ?
If not I would suggest looking up JWfacts and reading Don Camerons "Captives Of A Concept" by a former Elder available from LULU
Congratulations on obtaining your Bachelors and Masters and working at a University.Well done
I think you just need to shake off all that is JWism and embrace the real world we all live in.
Take care .