Posts by GoddessRachel

boyzone, you are not alone. Please do not give up. I know the pain firsthand of having your own parents turn on you. Of having family friends turn on you.

You sound like you are fairly newly out. Are you disfellowshipped? What is your story? I will search your posts and see if I can find it also.

A huge thing that helped me was when I moved very far away from where I grew up. I do not run into JWs I grew up with anymore. I do not have to face shunning by them - not face to face anyway.

My mom has been the worst, though time has caused her to give in a little here and there. As long as I do not push her too much, she is glad to have a relationship of me. No, it is not what I want, it is not a normal mother-daughter relationship. But what I have gained is the respect of my dad, who is a JW but very logical, and a relationship with him that I never before had. When I call he always sounds happy to hear from me. Mind you, it took three years to get to this place. And a lot of acceptance of what I do not have as long as my parents are part of this religion.

Trust me, if you ride out the storm and take good of your heart, and your heart is dear and deserves nothing but loving kindness from you, then you can get past these feelings and not just survive but THRIVE! I PROMISE!

Rachel

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I am So Angry

by GoddessRachel in

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i hate everything.

i am so angry at my mother, at my father, my sister, my brother.

nobody understands me.

GoddessRachel

Boyzone, I am so glad this thread is helping you! Most important is to know you are absolutely not alone in your strugge!

I took up daily walking almost a year ago (probably about 10 months ago, actually). I also took up yoga, which focuses a lot on the here and now, and breathing and just observing, while also strengthening and toning your body! (In your bare feet and without a bra if you want! It is fabulous!)

I highly recommend daily activity. You do not have to be a marathon runner. You do not have to be a super exerciser. I aim for an hour of activity each day which is a combination of yoga and walking. A few days a week I end up doing more like an hour and a half, just because it is cyclical: the more you do it the more you love it the more you benefit the more you do it - and so on. I am telling you: my daily walks (with my doggie) and my yoga are one of my favorite times of my day! I never thought I would feel that way, but I do! (The fact that I have also lost inches and can wear my cute skinny clothes again is sure motivating too, but more than that I genuinely enjoy the movement; it is the best anti-depressant ever!)

Above all else, nobody taught me how important our breath is. Yoga breathing is about long deep breaths in and out through the nose, in equal to out. The fastest way to center myself and remind myself of all that is beautiful in life is to go out on the back deck, and take some deep "yoga" breaths.

I highly highly highly highly recommend this to everyone. Try it. Try it before you knock it. I am telling you it is wondrous.

BZ, you can do this! We can all be happy and fulfilled!

How long have you been out? I am 3 years out and finally finding my footing in life. It has been a struggle, many times a constant one. Take heart, time does heal, there IS life after the JWs and it is better than anything you have ever known!

The Here and Now is all we have, everybody. The Here is now is all we have.

x,

Rachel

P.S. journey-on, thank you for your lovely post. Poppers is so wise. I hope to meet Poppers in person some day. His responses are always spot on.

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Alert: WinPC Anti-virus

by FlyingHighNow in

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my computer is with the geek squad currently to rid it of this winpc anti-virus.

the guy who is repairing my computer is ian and he's a member of the geek squad.

he has two other computers he is trying to rid of the same virus.

GoddessRachel

What are all the ways you can get it?

My computer got it and it completely shut us down. Not good for business at all!

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Goddess Roll Call: LADIES, Show Your Inner Goddess, Stand Proud Say It Loud!

by GoddessRachel in

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my username is goddessrachel.

because i believe we are all gods and goddesses.

after all aren't we made in god's image?.

GoddessRachel

lol @ restrangled!

Restrangled is a goddess WOO HOO!

BabyGirl is a goddess WOO HOO!

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I am So Angry

by GoddessRachel in

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i hate everything.

i am so angry at my mother, at my father, my sister, my brother.

nobody understands me.

GoddessRachel

I PROMISE I am not bringing this thread back because of me. I AM GREAT, I AM FINE!

I just re-read the whole thread, and the advice, the words, the wonderful things that people wrote, I just think we all can benefit greatly from the responses on this thread.

If you read just one lovely response from one poster (besides me, I was the angry one!) you will be glad you did, I think. Off the top of my head, read Hortensia, read JoannaDandy, Poppers, Sparkplug, but really read them all! You will be so glad you did!

PEACE,

Rachel

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Super serious question

by 5thGeneration in

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please no sarcastic crap from mean members.. i had a family member kill herself over being raised by a c.o.

who told her that it ruined their life and that she was a mistake.. i have a 10 page report from a psychiatrist back, who was also a jw, in the eighties that is pretty incredible.. now, i was also born jw with a 100 year "truth" heritage to cause me the same guilt.. and it may be drivng me the same way.

i feel the same way my aunt felt.

GoddessRachel

5thGeneration, please check in with us!

I just dug up this old thread of mine: http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/162046/1/I-am-So-Angry

YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS!!!

Rachel

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Goddess Roll Call: LADIES, Show Your Inner Goddess, Stand Proud Say It Loud!

by GoddessRachel in

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my username is goddessrachel.

because i believe we are all gods and goddesses.

after all aren't we made in god's image?.

GoddessRachel

Ah, I should have known, JD. I said "god" (lowercase) not "God."

Perhaps you need to tone your inner god down a notch? Perhaps not, you are a scintillating story-teller anyway.

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Goddess Roll Call: LADIES, Show Your Inner Goddess, Stand Proud Say It Loud!

by GoddessRachel in

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my username is goddessrachel.

because i believe we are all gods and goddesses.

after all aren't we made in god's image?.

GoddessRachel

Hi Journey-on, why Thank you! I just speak from my heart! Well, type anyway, so yeah, just call me the Motivational Typer!

Journey-On, I know what you mean. You, my dear, ARE a goddess, and you will know it someday. Right now, without even knowing you, I can tell you are a goddess, because you take the time to point out a good quality in another when you see it. And because you are on JWN adding that all-important flesh to your soul's bones, as you put it. Those are two excellent reasons right there why YOU, Journey-On, are a goddess!

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Goddess Roll Call: LADIES, Show Your Inner Goddess, Stand Proud Say It Loud!

by GoddessRachel in

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my username is goddessrachel.

because i believe we are all gods and goddesses.

after all aren't we made in god's image?.

GoddessRachel

lol yeah "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and goshdarnit, people like me"

I don't know what that has to do with beer though; is that in "the movie"? I've only seen the SNL sketch.

So JOHN DOE, WHY ARE YOU A GOD? Do tell, do tell. (I feel like I'm opening a can of worms here, but what the hell...)