Thanks for the info.
The advice oompa gave you to slow down and consider your situation was also given to my on this board when I first came here. I took it, and I am glad I did. My marriage isn't going to make it, but I feel I have given myself time to reflect of every aspect of my decision.
For me it ended up being about kids, my grandkids (I am raising them). My history as a JW involved six kids, three step. None of them are JW's. I couldn't let my grandkids even be exposed to it, the scars can be so deep.
Second, I was told what to do, how to believe, what to think, how I was wrong, how Jehovah wouldn't listen to my prayers....etc....for so long, I lost my ability to tolerate it. Kind of like you just were force fed 30 hot dogs (in the bun) and they want to feed you just one more. Even if I became a strong woman overnight, and I could silence it. We all know it is alway there, unspoken words can sometimes be just as damaging. I don't want to live my life with someone who thinks my heart is not in the right condition.
I guess I just reached my limit. Time to reinvent my life.
wings.