Posts by wings

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Whole day ruined because it's a meeting night?

by veen in

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at some point nearly every day of the week was soiled by the prospect of some 'spiritual' activity.

it took me years of inactivity before i started seeing tuesdays and thursdays as enjoyable, without a shadow hanging over them.

wednesday was always my favorite day of the week.. .

wings

I've been one of those that used my "sick" card waaaaay too much

In my house we called it BMS, Before Meeting Syndrome....you weren't the only one.

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Stay or leave your spouse after leaving JWs - Do you have regrets?

by Awakened at Gilead in

i am in a situation that many of you have faced... whether to stay with my spouse or not after having learned the falsehood of the org.. my wife is diehard witness who gets upset whenever i talk about the org negatively.

she is not happy that i am on jwd... in fact the other day she picked up the keyboard and wanted to throw it accros the room or bash me with it when she saw i was on jwd... she is also very upset about me making friends with "apostates" and worldly people, and told me never to bring them to our home!

this concerns me, since i am not going to have any friends in the org, and i need at least a few friendships...she doesn't want me to talk to the friends in the cong about my decision so that i don't share my doubts.

wings

The fears and the guilt is too great to buck the system. I guess one has to choose how confining of a relationship one wants to remain in for the rest of one's life. It's all in what brand of codependency you choose to live in.

Thank you for putting it so well.

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Unity

by RebelWife in

why do they say every one of them all over the world believes the same thing, but then they'll say that they personally don't believe a particular aspect of the doctrine?

for instance, my dubsband doesn't necessarily believe i'll die at the big a.

wings

It's called double minded thinking. I think it is part of the basic doctrine, so it can be added to anything in the beliefs, kind of like tobasco.

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I know my favorite dream job - what's yours?

by wings in

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food critic for a gormet magazine.

movie critic....i'd be good at that.

travel book writer.....i should move that to the top.

wings

Okay, I give up trying to respond to everyone. I just want you all to know how much I enjoyed sharing dreams with you. You are great!

I'm surprised there hasn't been any NASCAR drivers or CEO's of some green industry.....

I could have guessed oompa's, just mad I didn't think of it first.

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Whole day ruined because it's a meeting night?

by veen in

jw
friends

at some point nearly every day of the week was soiled by the prospect of some 'spiritual' activity.

it took me years of inactivity before i started seeing tuesdays and thursdays as enjoyable, without a shadow hanging over them.

wednesday was always my favorite day of the week.. .

wings

It took me years of inactivity before I started seeing Tuesdays and Thursdays as enjoyable, without a shadow hanging over them. Wednesday was always my favorite day of the week.

Same here. UG, the memories. Glad they are memories and not my reality anymore. Everyday, now has the possibility of being a Wednesday.

I especially hated Thanksgiving. The whole country has a day off, and I had to go to meeting.

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YOUR DAILY JOURNAL

by compound complex in

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dear friends,.

much of what we do on a daily basis is routine and of no particular, earth-shaking importance.

however, after reviewing letters of family going back to wwii, it is fascinating to read what dad was doing on board the aircraft carrier in the pacific on any old day, what mom was cooking on her ever-steaming range, how i was dealing with the roller coaster of emotion at bethel [mom saved all my letters], how nana wrote that she would not study with the witnesses [per my request] but 'here are some mittens i knitted for you when you canvass new york with your magazines.

wings

This morning I woke up 6am, a usual day. Went into my daughters room to ask her to help me get my mom out of bed. She wasn't there, and as I look out the window,my car is missing.

There is a history to this that I don't have the stomach to go into, let me just say, I am having severe anxiety. How do I deal with that? I start an ugly thread. Can't talk about it, just wanted to tell someone.

I feel isolated and scared. Oh, and my back hurts because I did get my mom out of bed.

Waiting.....all I can do is wait, and try to remember to breath. I'll post later today and let you know what's up.

wings

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I know my favorite dream job - what's yours?

by wings in

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friends

food critic for a gormet magazine.

movie critic....i'd be good at that.

travel book writer.....i should move that to the top.

wings

Ruining the Watchtower Society.

Into the ground I hope.

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What is my problem......

by loosie in

i just got back from a church talent show that my cousin was in.

but when i hear songs such as " open the eyes of my heart lord" , " i can only imagine" or "jesus take the wheel" why does it make me want to run for the hills?

i hard the hardest time enjoying the song and ignoring the words.

wings

loosie, (raises hand) I know the answer!!!

It's being in a room full of people all standing and singing together. I think if they were singing John Lennon's "Imagine" it would still creep me out.

If I hear it on the radio or see it on tv it wouldn't bother me. I start getting short of breath when they all stand and start singing. My favorite meeting was bookstudy....no singing.

wings

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What is my problem......

by loosie in

i just got back from a church talent show that my cousin was in.

but when i hear songs such as " open the eyes of my heart lord" , " i can only imagine" or "jesus take the wheel" why does it make me want to run for the hills?

i hard the hardest time enjoying the song and ignoring the words.