Though not doing anything unscriptual as such, it is really being on here, but to me it isn't it is like I am a paradox. But it is getting harder, like the joy is gone and its hard to go to all the meetings, I have found it has also effected my health, the worry about being found out that I don't agree with the GB.
I am really fond of some in my congregation and know they are really honest sweet people that love Jehovah, and they would see things unfair but that prod along only because they love Jehovah, and there are others you know that are organizational people that love the power, and anything they do underhanded is because of the protection of the congregation.
I just feel that the levee will have to eventually break and we will find a seperation between those that are their for Jehovah and cant stand the hyprocy and others that are there in idolatry for the org. Time will tell, but I hope something happens soon to many are hurting and its ruining lives and families.