i just bought a bottle of wine for an exjw's 30th that i am about to run off to.
on it there was a great quote by mark twain:.
"twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do... explore.
it depends what you do with your regrets, but come on, tell me you'd have some damn better memories if you banged those sweet hotties from high school instead of having them see you at their door on saturday morning with a bible and watchtower.
tits and ass or 'have you ever wondered why god permits wickedness?'
i'd like some better memories.
i just bought a bottle of wine for an exjw's 30th that i am about to run off to.
on it there was a great quote by mark twain:.
"twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do... explore.
The sex that I didn't have....feeling guilty for the jw foreplay that i did have....not being able to take up an instrument b/c being in a band was 'bad'. being creative was not looked well upon in general.
no, mostly the awesome teenage and early 20's sex....the opportunities were there, girls would freak out i was a virgin and want to deflower me, should've taken 'em up on that.
but in general i feel like i'm exactly where i need to be and the future looks pretty damn good.
my name is ruby parker.
i am 29 years old.
i was disfellowshipped when i was 16, i have completed a double major in anthropology and religion studies.
[I would love to see how the society would "explain away" the mass suicides (although one at a time) that goes along with many shunning experiences.]
isn't their position that they've lost jehovah's holy spirit and were open to satanic influences, or some propaganda crap like that?
if somebody anywhere in the world were to ask what was very american -what would you answer?.
apple pie.
hamburgers.
[political correctness, serial killers, eating disorders and plastic surgery]
thank you, the first legit answer here.
and i'll add media illiteracy to that as well.
but we do kick ass when it comes to the film industry, music and literature.
kathy bates -- my goodness i wish she was my neighbor, she is awesome.
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bonnie hunt -- (sister in jerry mcquire - in fact often plays 'the sister') .
my vote for sarah silverman as well.
i interview celebs and public peeps all the time and even though it's cool to meet them and talk with them, i'm not star struck. when i met sarah, i completely dorked out, didn't know what to say. she put her hand out for me to shake it and i walked away. i think if i shook her hand i probably would've immediately moved it to my crotch or wrapped my legs around her and dry humped her.
jimmy kimmel is soooooo damn lucky.
also on the list, parker posey, catherine keener, miranda july.
which is better ?
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i am trying netflix and i am little disapointed with them two days still no movies..
my experience w/ netflix is completely different. they turn films over within a day and are completely on top of it if a disc is damaged or lost in the mail.
i've been with them for about two years and have never had a problem or delayed film.
and they don't support censorship like blockbuster does.
which is better ?
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i am trying netflix and i am little disapointed with them two days still no movies..
blockbuster supports censorship, so i don't ever rent or give money to a corporation who makes directors edit an nc-17 film into an r-rated version to get in their store b/c the art of cinema is compromised and the MPAA is a joke.
Netflix!
also, if you want more obscure films, greencine.com is pretty good....but they have longer turn arounds when renting.
my name is ruby parker.
i am 29 years old.
i was disfellowshipped when i was 16, i have completed a double major in anthropology and religion studies.
awesome!! this needs to be made.
just in case you haven't taken film classes, i'd suggest finding a class on documentary story telling...and getting a detailed proposal/synopsis together could get you access to grants and funding.
also, from my experience totally crapping out as a director...i suck at directing, but kick ass at writing and editing, i highly recommend getting an assistant director and a cinematographer if you can....include that in your budget when going after money.
money and grants vary state to state and country to country. even getting a detailed proposal together and making it available in this forum would be a great idea. for example, $2000 would get someone an associate producer credit and $5000 would get an executive producer credit.
AND, when it comes to distribution, that fake journalist whore who directed 'knocking' recruited his audiences from every congregation, encouraging them to pay to see the film multiple times to get the PBS backing by showing them how "big the audience was", even though it was 95% witnesses going over and over to get their word out. i hate that he's even mentioned as a journalist.
your film needs to be made. if you have any other film questions you can hit me up...i have film fest experience, write about film and have made mistakes galore in the industry that might be helpful to learn from.
my name is ruby parker.
i am 29 years old.
i was disfellowshipped when i was 16, i have completed a double major in anthropology and religion studies.
[I was dfed at 16, 18 and 23.]
wow, a DF trifecta! that's amazing.
being a dyed in the wool northeasterner means i have certain proclivities:.
a love of smashmouth nfc east football and an abiding affection for underachieving baseball teamsthe ability to find woody allen films (nee' woody allen himself) exceptionally funnyan uncontrollable desire to drive 4 miles out of my way to go to the place with the better bagelsno aversion to psychotherapy/analysisi went under psychotherapy for about 8 months; not near long enough to get the kind of depth thats needed but it was still insightful and liberating in its truncated form.
resistance is a huge factor in the process and i fought it like most, maybe with a subconscious disadvantage stemming from an inbred fear of "the world".
[To quote Patti Smith: "Jesus died for sombody's sins, but not mine".]
i'm sure you know this already, but just in case you don't, patti smith was raised a jehovah's witness.
therapy, i had my first taste from a witness therapist, who was an incredible help to get my family to realize how f--ked up we were and to start dealing with issues. she was great when it came to instant crisis and dealing with children in crisis. but, she sucked as a therapist. therapists shouldn't have agendas. she was a black jehovah's witness, totally cool w/ me, but she had this thing about pushing how hard it was to be black and also pushing how important it was to get back into the jws. then, to my surprise, she had me sign a document, passed it off as, 'i just need you to sign this', and it was a document acknowledging that she wasn't a therapist, but that this was life coaching.
she thought of herself as the black woman jesus. yes, she challenged local congregations with their prejudices against seeking therapy since 'the bible is all you need', in fact, the bible can do chemotherapy to cancer patients as far as the borg is concerned.
when i realized she was pushing her problems onto me, i got out quick. unfortunately my mom still goes to her and i keep trying to let my mom know that she's NOT a therapist and what she's doing is NOT therapy, it's being mentored by someone with a huge agenda.
when my agoraphobia and panic attacks became too horrid to deal with i made calls to about 15 therapists until i found one who seemed like she could help. she's been great. she has her own issues with religion, which we've discussed that i still believe there's a chance the bible could be inspired scripture, but i'm pretty pissed off at god for keeping a lot of things vague so people like the jws can focus on certain things for power.
i've been seeing her for four years. things have been up and down. right now they're at a down, but in recovery there are times when it's two steps back and the shit just needs to be gone through.
80% of what we discuss is spirituality and jw and elder related. i had to get her up to speed on jws and she actually went and did research herself.
there are times i take a week off b/c i just don't feel like talking about things and would rather be in denial...there are times i go twice a week b/c i need the support.
the main thing i've learned is that it's ok that my identity includes growing up and being a jw...that there was a time i completely bought into it. i used to feel shame about that and i don't feel shame anymore.
she gives me coping techniques. i've written a novel and part of it was accelerated b/c i was in therapy and felt ok to really put my humorous digs into the wtbts.
i'm going to be in therapy for the rest of my life....not just b/c of the jws, but b/c suicide and depression has run deep in my family even before the jws got to them. being a jw just complicated matters.
i'm also considering finding a meditation group near me, something kind of based on Buddhist technique w/o the Buddhist dogma...which seems to be readily available in my area and might even be something my doctor can prescribe so i can get into a class w/ health insurance.
