Would it have been easier? Absolutely. Heck, I haven't even begun to break away yet. I haven't been to a meeting for 3 months, and haven't been in service for far longer, but my family (who know about my doubts) thinks I'll pull through this. I don't want to lie to them, but I can't think of any way to come out of this other than putting on the facade for now. I'm planning on building up a network of friends outside the org. before leaving.
I could have probably kept going on, gotten married, raised a family, etc. etc. My parents lived through 1975 so their big piece of advice for life to me was "SAVE FOR RETIREMENT!" They tell me to be ready for the end to come soon, but plan my life as if it isn't. I guess I'm fortunate to have parents that aren't 100% behind the program. I went to college (though only for 2 years) and my brother is going for a bachelor's degree at a university. So, I could have had a decent life in the witnesses if I wanted to, albeit with some deviation from prescribed witness living. However, honesty and truthfulness and very important to me. One day the blinders fell off and I read the Witness literature without the Watchtower fog in front of my eyes. For the first time I saw through the circular reasoning (that interpretation would contradict our beliefs, therefore, our interpretation is correct because our beliefs are correct) and the leaps in logic (selectively declaring prophecies to have dual fulfillments whenever convenient).
Just because something makes you feel good doesn't make it the right thing to do.