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AWAKE&WATCHING
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Can I hear a "whoop whoop" for high-speed and hot tubs?
by AWAKE&WATCHING inand... we got our hot tub the same day!!!!
i have the best boyfriend in the whole world!!!
life is beautiful!.
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Who here has just let the JW stuff go?. I NEED HELP GUYS!!!!!!!.................
by oompa in....i am so frikkin obsessed about the jw lies and my newfound truths about them, and it is prob driving me crazy or causing depression.....if i wake up in the middle of the night, i never get back to sleep as my mind starts racing about jw crap and how it affects my marriage, and then how can i make this marriage work with her such a hardcore dub....i told my wife i now realize i am an abusive husband.....i must stop talking to her about the real truth!!
!..........it is killing her inside and we have had soooo many bad discussions that turn into arguments......on top of that she says she is now closer to jah and the org than at any other time in her life, that now that she has no positive direction from me, she relies totally on jehovah and prays to him more than ever..... we talked about separation, and that i was going to lose her over our religious differences........i feel so sorry for what i have put her through, and i know that if i can not really shut up with my ohsohelpful comments of truths about this truth she will leave me due to "spiritual endangerment".......and she said she is damm close to that happening.....i told her i knew it to and would so hate to lose her due to our religious differences.
at my recent shepherding call, they said to try and stop focusing on the negatives i have found in jw, and focus on the good things...and that is not a bad idea even if i never go back to meetings....there are good things about dubs....the efforts at ending racism and at least for me, some really good lifelong friends.......even their hope for the future was pretty good to me, even though it is a bunch of crap and i no longer believe the bible is gods word or inspired.....it does have some good suggestions for a happy life and ideas as to how to treat others........but so do just about every holy book of other faiths........ i had plans to start going to some meetings with my wife, but today, after a sleepless night i told her i just dont think i can do it, and just as she strongly believes it is the truth, i do not, and that i think the guys on the gb are not led by holy spirit cause if she will read the proclaimers book, she will see we have never gotten a single bible inerpretation of prophecy correct.......so she says "so what is there?
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oh yeah... I could have NEVER just learned to keep my mouth shut to keep from fighting about it, not if I lived for a million years. No how - no way, not in my character. I'm a caller of BULLSHIT from way back.
If you can do it then that's your choice and the reward of a happy marriage may be waiting for you. You have got to figure out how much YOU can swallow without talking back. I hope that you get to a happy place no matter what you decide.
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Who here has just let the JW stuff go?. I NEED HELP GUYS!!!!!!!.................
by oompa in....i am so frikkin obsessed about the jw lies and my newfound truths about them, and it is prob driving me crazy or causing depression.....if i wake up in the middle of the night, i never get back to sleep as my mind starts racing about jw crap and how it affects my marriage, and then how can i make this marriage work with her such a hardcore dub....i told my wife i now realize i am an abusive husband.....i must stop talking to her about the real truth!!
!..........it is killing her inside and we have had soooo many bad discussions that turn into arguments......on top of that she says she is now closer to jah and the org than at any other time in her life, that now that she has no positive direction from me, she relies totally on jehovah and prays to him more than ever..... we talked about separation, and that i was going to lose her over our religious differences........i feel so sorry for what i have put her through, and i know that if i can not really shut up with my ohsohelpful comments of truths about this truth she will leave me due to "spiritual endangerment".......and she said she is damm close to that happening.....i told her i knew it to and would so hate to lose her due to our religious differences.
at my recent shepherding call, they said to try and stop focusing on the negatives i have found in jw, and focus on the good things...and that is not a bad idea even if i never go back to meetings....there are good things about dubs....the efforts at ending racism and at least for me, some really good lifelong friends.......even their hope for the future was pretty good to me, even though it is a bunch of crap and i no longer believe the bible is gods word or inspired.....it does have some good suggestions for a happy life and ideas as to how to treat others........but so do just about every holy book of other faiths........ i had plans to start going to some meetings with my wife, but today, after a sleepless night i told her i just dont think i can do it, and just as she strongly believes it is the truth, i do not, and that i think the guys on the gb are not led by holy spirit cause if she will read the proclaimers book, she will see we have never gotten a single bible inerpretation of prophecy correct.......so she says "so what is there?
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I have no advice. I only lasted a few more months with my ex-husband once I found out. But our marriage sucked anyway. We led completely separate lives except for meeting attendance. Nothing in common. I wanted to get outside and hike and enjoy nature. He wanted to sit in front of the TV.
I can only tell you that it was as big of a relief to be away from having to hear him tell me it's God's organization on a daily basis (no matter what I shared with him that I'd learned) as it was to quit attending meetings.
I know you have been struggling for quite awhile with this and I hope that you are able to find peace in this lifetime. I personally believe that this is all we have.
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How Have YOU Changed Since Leaving The Witnesses?
by minimus inare you that much different now?.
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I was stressed out all the time when I was a JW. Trying to work AND attend meetings AND raise kids that I was required to take to the meetings AFTER preparing for them ahead of time while dealing with a disbelieving mate whose relatives thought my religion was crazy was a bit much. Add to that the fact that my youngest child was disabled and I was encouraged repeatedly by some in the congregation to put him in a home somewhere so that I could be out in service more......and blah! blah! blah!
I am more at peace, more like the person I was before I got sucked into the cult, only better. I really LIKE myself and who I am becoming. My whole world view is different. It's nice to relax and not have to think that every single, however small, decision can evoke the wrath of God.
I really love people and I don't have that voice screaming in my head "This person is bad association and will be killed at Armageddon!" I think that was the hardest part for me, seeing such good people in the world and thinking that God was going to destroy them anyway.
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Can I hear a "whoop whoop" for high-speed and hot tubs?
by AWAKE&WATCHING inand... we got our hot tub the same day!!!!
i have the best boyfriend in the whole world!!!
life is beautiful!.
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YEA!!!! We were finally able to find a provider of HIGH-SPEED INTERNET up here on the mountain!!! Now I can get on here every day if I want to!!!! I am so excited, I hated not being able to post unless I was at the library. I've been out of the loop and I miss everyone!
AND... we got our hot tub the same day!!!! I have the best boyfriend in the whole world!!! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!
They say living well is the best revenge...Take THAT Watchtower!
BB - how soon are you going to be here?
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WTF? Anyone else get this?
by AWAKE&WATCHING ingot this in a pm about three days ago so sorry if it's been discussed.
from: scott williams., .
country: ivory coast .
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AWAKE&WATCHING
uh...that's "from" when I was a dub
Lisa - I can't see your pics! *stomps foot*
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Exciting News!!!!! Helping Step by Step
by coffee_black ini have posted the beginning of this story a while back.
my 14 year old grandson founded helping step by step to call attention to the plight of homeless children in this country.
he will walk from orlando fl to washington dc this summer, living as close as possible to how a homeless child lives.
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AWAKE&WATCHING
You must be SO proud! I am and I don't even know him. What a great kid! Keep us posted sweetie.
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Exciting News!!!!! Helping Step by Step
by coffee_black ini have posted the beginning of this story a while back.
my 14 year old grandson founded helping step by step to call attention to the plight of homeless children in this country.
he will walk from orlando fl to washington dc this summer, living as close as possible to how a homeless child lives.
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AWAKE&WATCHING
You must be SO proud! I am and I don't even know him. What a great kid! Keep us posted sweetie.
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WTF? Anyone else get this?
by AWAKE&WATCHING ingot this in a pm about three days ago so sorry if it's been discussed.
from: scott williams., .
country: ivory coast .
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Well Lisa, it's all that clean living form when I was a dub. I get these offers all the time.
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Dumest thing you did !!
by cluless ini thought i would enjoy a few hours cathing up on events on the board.. i purchased a kebab pizza and opend a cold beer.
unfortunately i put my cigarette butt out in the newly opend beer can-.
okay by my standards thats not dumb...but has anyone done a dumer thing whilst on this board?.
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AWAKE&WATCHING
ahhhhh...hugs Phee and pats her on the back
So many dumb things and so little time to relate them.