Posts by AWAKE&WATCHING

BTW folks, I'm not the thread police or anything like that but it's one thing to have a different opinion than someone else and another thing to make fun of someone's beliefs. Can't we just all get along?

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I LEFT MY HUSBAND last night. Kind words anyone?

by AWAKE&WATCHING in

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friends

i am white, my husband is black.

he is not baptized but goes to all the meetings and is in the school.

a few months ago i read the following info which i just copied from vinny's thread.

AWAKE&WATCHING

I love you guys. Thank you, it really means a lot to me that you all take the time to reply.

Just to clear up a few things. This is my second marriage and my husband's first, we do not have children together.

We are both in our late 40's and have been married for almost 5 years, we dated for almost 12. My husband changed literally overnight when we got married. He is verbally abusive and has become physical by getting in my face screaming and backing me against the wall. He has never HIT me but has pushed me with his body.

I kept thinking he would go back to the way he was when we dated. I was a fool to tolerate this for this long. I am relieved and at peace with my decision to leave.

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I LEFT MY HUSBAND last night. Kind words anyone?

by AWAKE&WATCHING in

jw
friends

i am white, my husband is black.

he is not baptized but goes to all the meetings and is in the school.

a few months ago i read the following info which i just copied from vinny's thread.

AWAKE&WATCHING

Well I just got a load out of the house. Important things like photo albums, books, file cabinet and of course my Pampered Chef. Next load Thurs. will be my fairy and glass collections which will take some time. I have a huge picture window full of stained glass pieces, blown glass balls and things I've made out of old chandelier crstals and glass beads. That will be emotionally hard on me to take down because it was a year long project. It's so beautiful and I know it will probably be quite awhile before I can hang it all up again.

I appreciate all of your words of encouragement and just wanted you to know I'm fine and moving forward.

Love to you all.

Robin

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I LEFT MY HUSBAND last night. Kind words anyone?

by AWAKE&WATCHING in

jw
friends

i am white, my husband is black.

he is not baptized but goes to all the meetings and is in the school.

a few months ago i read the following info which i just copied from vinny's thread.

AWAKE&WATCHING

Thanks for all the support and hugs, I really need it right now.

My husband has acted like this for almost 5 years. For the last year and 8 months he is out every week-end night (except 2 in all this time) until 2:30 - 4:00 am.

He is in the "theocratic" school and has a Bible study with an 11 year old so this is something that has really bothered me. Hypocrisy at it's finest.

He has been really supportive since I started telling him about things I was finding out (you know, evil apostate stuff) a few months ago . I was actually surprised by that and for the first time since we were married he was acting like the man I fell in love with. Still going out though doing who knows what with who knows who.

When we started dating he would ask "What are you doing this week-end?"

As time went on it was "What are we doing this week-end?"

Now if I ask "Where have you been until 3:30 am?" I'm supposed to accept his answer, "Out and about."

And you know what? For a long time it mattered to me how and why this had happened.

The only thing that matters now is that IT IS THIS WAY. Not why or how.

Counting Crows / "Sullivant Street":

" I don't really care, I'm gone from there."

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I LEFT MY HUSBAND last night. Kind words anyone?

by AWAKE&WATCHING in

jw
friends

i am white, my husband is black.

he is not baptized but goes to all the meetings and is in the school.

a few months ago i read the following info which i just copied from vinny's thread.

AWAKE&WATCHING

I have a great job and a place to stay, it's been coming for a long time. I have put up with a lot. It was the straw that broke the camel's back. Really, enough is enough.

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I LEFT MY HUSBAND last night. Kind words anyone?

by AWAKE&WATCHING in

jw
friends

i am white, my husband is black.

he is not baptized but goes to all the meetings and is in the school.

a few months ago i read the following info which i just copied from vinny's thread.

AWAKE&WATCHING

I am white, my husband is black. He is not baptized but goes to all the meetings and is in the school. A few months ago I read the following info which I just copied from Vinny's thread. Thanks Vinny.

1898 "God .. evidently has been a respecter of races, and has specially blessed and favored certain branches of the Aryan race in Europe and America.. the white race has been more abundantly blessed with the light of the Gospel than others .. the elect Church will probably be composed chiefly of the highly favored white race.." {EVOL 30-1}

1900 "There are probably as many as a hundred colored brethren on the Watch Tower lists, some of them very clear in the truth, and very earnest in its service, financially and other-wise .. [but they are not allowed to participate in the "pioneer work" as] although we have received letters from several of these, who had intended engaging in the volunteer work, expressing surprise that in the call for volunteers in the March 1, 1900 issue we restricted the inquiry to white Protestant churches. .. The reason is that so far as we are able to judge, colored people have less education than whites - many of them quite insufficient to permit them to profit by such reading as we have to give forth. Our conclusion therefore is based upon the supposition that reading matter distributed to a colored congregation would more than half of it be utterly wasted, and a very small percentage indeed likely to yield good results. We advise, therefore, that where the Watch Tower literature is introduced to colored people it be not by promiscuous circulation, but only to those who give evidence of some ear for the truth. We avoid, so far as possible, putting the pearls of present truth into the hands of the vicious and depraved .." {ZWT Apr 15 1900 122}

1902 "The Negro Not a Beast .. that Ham's characteristics which had led him to unseemly conduct disrespectful to his father, would be found cropping out later, inherited by his son, and prophetically he foretold that this degeneracy would mark the posterity of Canaan, degrading him, making him servile. We are not able to determine to a certainty that the sons of Ham and Canaan are negroes; but we consider that general view as probable as any other.. We are not to forget, either, that Africa is inhabited by various tribes or nations of negroes - some more and some less degraded than the average.. While it is true that the white race exhibits some qualities of superiority over any other, we are to remember that there are wide differences in the same Caucasian (Semitic and Aryan) family.. The secret of the greater intelligence and aptitude of the Caucasian undoubtedly in great measure is to be attributed to the commingling of blood amongst its various branches; and this was evidently forced in large measure by circumstances under divine control. It remains to be proven that the similar commingling of the various tribes of Chinese for several centuries would not equally brighten their intellects; and the same with the peoples of India and Africa." {ZWT Jul 15 1902 216}

I was appalled and told my husband so. He said everybody thought those things back then and didn't think it such a big deal. I made the point that God knew these things weren't true and they claim to speak for God, yadda,yadda. Not an argument in any way - just a discussion.

Anyway, last night I was talking to his 21 yr. old nephew at a family gathering. He said he believed in evolution so I told him about the "New Children" on you tube with extra genes and that some are saying it proves evolution, blah, blah, blah.

My husband thought I was talking to him about the info above regarding the early WTS views. I guess he heard the word "genes". He actually got in my face in front of people, yelling at me that I am "trying to draw people after me".

So I've decided that I do not have to tolerate this controlling behavior anymore. I've had enough fun. I packed as much as I could get in my car and I left. I am never going to put up with anyone who wants to control me again.